Thanks for the comments of my poem... It took me a long time to decide whether or not to post that one.. I made a bunch last night but I think it would be wise to wait til tomorrow to post...

well.. I don't feel like posting much... I feel sick... and tired as heck..  and empty inside.... and hollow.... then again that might be for not sleeping last night or not eating enough or for leaving last night and not coming home til 2 in the morning....... I couldn't... I need to think about some things.... I need to change myself... I must.... change myself....

The leaving was good... I have been going through different moods yesterday.... I haven't came toward the depressive or sad side yet... so I figured I needed someone to be with before it happens... so I went to see Shauna... she cheered me up a lot.... acting crazier as each minute passed... we watched Chronicles of Riddick and 1st episode of Gundam Wing which we couldn't stand... and we don't know why... we also saw the begining of Pirates of the Caribean.... the funny thing is we went for food at 1:30 in the morning.... the only thing that was open was QuikTrip... at least I had a hotdog...

and now I'm grounded but only as a labor grounded.. I must do work to get ungrounded... and be happy which would be tough for me... also the computer is being disconnected tonight... and it will only be reconnected on Monday so I won't be able to chat for a while.. but even then we need to figure things out so I probably won't be online til Tuesday...

what am I grounded for you may ask... for not smiling... and I snapped while mom was yelling at me... she just wouldn't stop and I don't really feel like getting yelled at today... especially the things she was yelling at me about....

farewell for the time being xanga.. and everyone that reads this....

leave comments if you want... I could use the encouragement... because right now I feel as though my soul is drowning in muddy waters..... and stabbed a million times...

well later.

-Miquela