I tried so hard to get a hold of you, yesterday, I'll try again today...I hope you have a great day ^-^

my bf has halo 2....i can't play those 1st person games for crap!  but the other type of games.....*evil grin*

Wow, sounds like you got quite a bit for Christmas!  I got a couple sweaters.  lol  Hope you had a good holiday!

In long response to your kind comment:

"perhaps the reason for thinking like this is not having any solitude. you did say your relatives were over so perhaps you need some alone time just like everyone else."

Heh, if only that were the reason. You see, I've been hiding away more and more while my family is about. My sister's room, my mother's room, both have become favorite hideaways. I am in quiet and satisfactory solitude there. To drown out their voices, I even put on Industrial music, which is one of those types of music that give me mental awareness, I think.

The worrisome thing is that I think more like this when I'm alone than when distracted with the movement and sounds of other people. Isn't that crap? I mean, I prefer to be alone from people, but if I'm going to be freaked out like this everytime I'm alone, I'm not sure which is better: solitude or protection from myself by being around people.

"What would help is if you had one friend that you can speak to.. or find someone who thinks the same way you do."

Yeah, I think I have one of those... I think. I'm not sure they think like me anymore... Or if they're even interested in hearing me. I'll have to check that out...

"*even though I still am searching for that*. *shrugs*. well I hope you get some peace and tranquility so you can find your answers. laters."

I hope you find someone that can hear your words and understand you too. I hope you find someone sincere in their friendliness to you... (Or what if you found someone that understood you, but you both disliked each other? That'd be a delightful relationship! Hostility and understanding wrapped into one funny little package. You'd be able to talk like friends, and trust that they won't tell anyone -- and at the same time, you two could ridicule the other to their face. Heh, that'd certainly be different... and perhaps torturous.)

And as for the peace and tranquility you hope for me -- Thank you.

"by the way Countess Bathory sound really interesting."

Isn't she though?!

Anyway, thank you very much for the comment. It's given me much to think about. Later!

-Galetrial

Ah yes, and Merry Late Christmas!

I dunno about the nap thing...I've been trying to, but my mom keeps poking me and telling me to wake up ~.~ Well i hope you have a great day =)

how about noonish?