| | "Daddy has a man purse." ~Summer, age 9, daughter of my dorm parents
Her dad has a man purse, he's pretty much awesome.
Ok, let me first start this post off with saying I like my job, I like it here; but there are always a couple of things any where you go that are less than perfect. Ok, so first an update as to what I am up to, and then some of the less than perfect things in my life right now.
-So last friday I went to a place called Songtong, it's basically a bunch of shops near the military base, so the people there speak english, I am not sure what else is special about it, but I had fun. I went up there with a couple of other RAs and they had errands to run so I wandered around there for a couple of hours on my own.
-Friday night, I went out with some of the RAs to a movie and dinner. The movie theatres here have assigned seating and the subtitles scroll down the side instead of the bottom. That was cool, afterwards we went to Starbucks (when in Rome i guess).
-The rest of the week I sorta worked, as I hung out with my kids and did job type stuff. I found I have plenty of time to myself
Ok, so here's a couple things I just can't stand:
-first I hate not being able to speak Korean and I hate that I let that fact intimidate me, granted it's my own fault, and will be remedied
-I hate not breathing nature's air. Living in a city means city air; I think it's just going to take some time to get use to.
-this one's the biggest. When dealing with the other RA's I hate the fact that I feel like I am in middle school all over again. Ok, here's what I mean, because they don't act like middleschoolers, it's mostly my own insecurity. So, there are a limited number of peers here to work with, granted a much larger number than what i had to work with in Woodland Park. So whenever I hang out with them I get really nervous and try really hard to get along, and then I just end up trying too hard, and I look and feel stupid. It's totally brutal. The funny thing is the RA's are totally into stuff that I love, there's even a guy here that likes Vigilantes of Love and is friends with Bill Mallonee [how cool is that?!?!], and yet i still feel incredibly socially awkward around them. I also feel patronized to a degree, like they only invite me to hang out because I am new and the boss is making them [i say that because that's what one of the girls said, although i am pretty sure she was just joking]
In fact here are couple of stories about my social awkwardness for your enjoyment. They both just happen to be about the same girl, and no it's not like THAT in any way so don't ask. Ok, the first one goes like this. I am headed to chapel yesterday morning with students, this is my first chapel and so I am not really sure where I am going or what I am doing. Well I see this particular RA, now currently I am being shuffled along in the crowd, so i am just following everyone else. So you know how you can look at people and your eyes meet but it's just glance so you aren't sure if you should wave or not, and then they look away so then you're waving at nobody? Well at first it one of those situations, but it got much worse. Keep in mind this is all solely in the name of being polite. So then she looks back at me and this time I pull the courtesey wave off and she waves back, but at that moment the shuffling crowd reaches the stairs and I just happen to trip on the stairs and totally wipe out, as everyone points and laughs. In front of her and probably 50 students. I hate my life- argh. Ok then later that day I bump into my boss and he tells me i need to contact that same RA to arrange a meeting for On Site Orientation, stuff I basically should have gone through a week ago, but hey, i am cool with that, the more I can learn about what I am doing the better. So i see her today, and I mention the fact that Brent wants us together about that stuff, he even wanted to pay for our dinner out so we would do it, and she pretty emphatically made it clear that she had no desire what soever to do it. So here I am thinking that people cant't even get paid to be my friend. So i am just kind of standing there feeling awkward as she proceeds to tell me how pointless teaching me is. So it leaves me 2 options, 1 agree with her so i can fit in, or 2 tell her i really wish I had orientation because I feel like there's stuff I just don't know about. I went with 1- i suck.
These stories are just one RA, I have stories concerning embarassment with every single one of them, I am just an incredibly socially awkward person- when did this happen to me? How did this happen? When did I start caring if I was cool? Well I hope all of you reading at home were atleast able to get a good laugh at my expence (see Wobbs, you arent the only loser out there). I hope all is well and thanks for the prayers and eprops(my last post got zero eprops by the way, how can I prove that I am cool if I don't have any eprops?).
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! chau. |
