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Name: Jacob
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Grand Rapids
Gender: Male
Interests: Sports, basketball, football, working out, poker, cars, partying, girls, having a good time
Expertise: Making a fool of myself
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  JakeJMC
Member Since:
1/1/2006
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| So i pretty much feel like shit.....
and now i get to pull an all nighter and study.... fuckin a.... :(
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| Got a new tattoo done friday.... still gotta get the first 3 letters shaded.... it only took about 4 and a half hours to do that much.... and i needed to get back to ann arbor. But I like it a lot. A blurry pic but I didnt have anyone to take the actual pic ha ha.
I know nobody really reads this thing anymore but w/e I just need to vent. Get things off my chest. Its funny how much you'd give up for a person and they wont do a damn thing for you. You forgive them for their mistakes, even when they go behind your back, yet if you make a single one your awful. IDK what to do anymore. I care so much but it seems like why should I. I sacrifice for you and you wont for me. I've come home every weekend, why? To see you.... how many times have you driven here to see me. When I "messed up" by saying I felt like you didnt care I went and tried to do something nice for you, taking you out to dinner, buying you gifts, and you tell me "thats weird." Instead of coming to see me, you hang out with the douche bag who wants you. When you told me you wouldnt hang out with him anymore.
And when I'm upset.... because of how you've been treating me... you get mad at me..... and now wont even talk to me.... this is ridiculous and i dont deserve to put up with this.
Maybe I'd be better off without you....
had to break up, I had to leave you
It was some things you needed to learn that I couldn't teach you
And those words musta hurt
but if you can't trust me, how am I supposed to trust it'll work?
like I can't teach you to stand right beside me
or the priveleges that come with that title "wifey"
it's highly unlikely, and I'm concerned myself
I can't teach you you that bitch, you gotta learn it yourself
And I can't teach you swagger, can't you attitude
can't teach you to talk, if its a problem get at your dude
we both got some things thats upsettin us
If you don't hear from me, know I'm somewhere reppin us
but maybe that life's not you and I'm the only thing that reminds ya
say you love me but did you call me no
So is it really really love or am I all that you know?
cause you quick to tell a kid to never call you again
with that said how can I call you a friend or anything more?
how can I see us havin anything more
If its that easy what we go through anything for?
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
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| School blows.... I havent even had class yet and I already have a shitload of homework.... and tomorrow class from 9 am-8pm... but at least I have 4 day weekends | | |
| Well classes start tomorrow... well for some of us ...... my one class doesnt meet tomorrow so i start wednesday. Then 4 day weekend! ha ha i love my schedule. I'll tell you... welcome week was pretty insane. Fun for sure. The roomies are awesome. The game was great and al stayed sat night with josh and brian. Tonight just chill, watch the game, and davids making us steaks ha ha. So it will be sweet. Only 4 more days til mindy, nicki, and AJ come. Its gonna be a blast, I miss her a ton and it seems liek things will work out. I finally rearranged my room today... so its not as crammed. Gotta get some more posters and such for the wall.... well thats my update. peace | | |
| So life is pretty amazing/stressful/crazy right now. But I like it. Being back in ann arbor, in our appartment, with 3 of the coolest people I know, is great. I do miss her quite a bit. But Im not gonna lie, i love it here. Tomorrow two of my best friends are coming, so it'll be a good time for the weekend, game saturday. I'm hella excited ha ha. And then next weekend, Mindy, AJ, and Nicki are coming down. Which might be the best weekend ever, but who knows. A reunion of us 4.... in A2! Its gonna be great. I miss home. But being here again... is amazing. :) I'm out for now... lets hope its still good when classes start ha ha | | |
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