well schools rapidly approaching..which kinda sucks...but then again i'm sorta ready for it..i have two classes ith brad all year..so i'm really happy..lets me know my year is starting off good...well al the drama is starting to cool down..me and jessica talked and everything with us is settled..and me and brad..well it took it alittle bit longer than it did with me and jessica..but were ok and i'm really happy!!!so everything is pretty much ok now..everyones pretty much on the same page so that makes things alot easier..nothings really been goen on with me except for tryen to get all this drama taken care of..i'm glad its over..that was just strressful...i've already started on making plans on some stuff i'd like to this year..i'm trying to get the best out of high school and go out and do the stuff i've always wanted too..so hopefully that works out..i'm gettingmy hair cut tomorrow and died differently..so i'll be a whole new person..lol..well other than that its been pretty boring..

as good as can be expected

meghan

The day i met you my life changed
the way you make me feel is hard to explain.
You make me smile in a special kind of way.
You make me fall deeper for you everyday
and when i look into your eyes i know it's true
there's no one else in the world for me but you.

When i was afraid of everything,
i was never afraid to love you..<33

well things in my life latley have been extremly stressful...i dont even know wheere to start..i had so much crap that i had to deal with....with brad...jessica...wayne...my mom...my friends...god...just life in general..and i had a break down...at the worst place to actually...at the bowling alleys parking lot...yea i know great place to have one...me and brad got into pretty much the worse situaltion that we have ever had to deal with...things sucked...but everythings ok with us and i'm so happy..i guess you could say i went through the feeling of what i would go through if i lost him..not that i did..but its hard to understand whithout you guys knowing the situation..but i dont wanna get into it...it was extremly painful to go through and talking about it jsut brings it back up and it doesnt need to be...i dunno...things with me have been so weird...i'm soo sick of having to deal with the same shit all the time with my family and breaking down pretty much every month because of it..i'm tired of it...i'm soo pissed off at probably the wrong person..but god..i use to alwyas think if you jsut believe and have faith god will do his plan for your life...everything happens for a reason..and i could trust him with my life...but as time goes on its harder to jsut live by that..i feel like for pertty much all of my life i've had to go through things that most kida dont..i just feel like i always have to have it harder..and i dont get why....but yea...hopefully things in y life will stay bright....like i said me and brad....hes just amazing...i'm so glad i have him in my life...i've realized latley how much i love him...and would give anything to be with him forever....but yea..well i went to the 30 seconds to mars consert..it was soo fun..i went with cidni,ashlee,her bf,jessica,and i saw my good buddy steve...it was awsome..but yea...well heres an update on my life..well yea i'm gonna go now

as good as can be expected

meghan

thought i was alone;; with no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

and we can laugh all we want, i know
it's your favorite. and i'll stare at you
all i can, cause you, you're my favorite.

               all i know is when im with you
i dont need anything else

well i just got back from kc...it was pretty fun..i went with my family and jessica...and i have to admit that jessica helped me to have a much better time than what i would of if she wouldnt of went...as most of you know me and my step dad do not get along at all...and she helped  me i guess be distracted from him..but we went to worlds of fun..and we got there friday and we stayed in this little cabin thing that was on the park..we pretty much had a roller coaster in out front yard...but we didnt get to go to worlds of fun till saturday...but we went to the zoo which was very entertaining with jessica there...for example she kissed a sheep right on the lips...lol...like i said it was entertaining...i'd have to say that my favorite ride was the spinning dragons...it was a roller coaster but the cart you sat in spun..it was awsome...but i have to admit that my trip wasnt as good as i thought...i mean i didnt want to go in the 1st place but with jessica goen i didnt think that it would be so bad..but me and brad had a little situation i guess you culd say and it bothered me for awhile..i know why it did..but i really dont want the world knowing so i'll leave it at that..but we both missed our bf alot..but i'm back with mine so i'm at least happy..lol...but i really liked being with jessica again..i missed her alot...but yea..well i'll ttyl...

as good as can be expected

meghan

i wish i could see through your eyes so i would know what you like to see,

i wish i knew your wishes ,so i could give you everything you want,i wish i

dreamed the same dreams you do,and together we could make them come true,

i wish i knew what makes you happy,so i could make you the happiest person in the

world.and lastly i wish i were a cellin your blood,so would be sure i was somewhere in your heart<<<i like this quote

ok well lets see...things were boring for awhile..i had just been sitting around the house all day and i hate that..brad went to newton this weekend..so i went and hung out with my friends...me and jessica went to all star sports and it was pretty fun..we rode the go karts and thats always fun for me..then we just hung out inside and talked..i wanted to play put put..so we did that ...i had fun..then she spent the night and we went swimming and took pics...which i'm sure you can tell...oh but saturday night was awsome..i went bowling with jessica,alex,caitlin.kayla,julie,and her friend tessa,and her brother jake and his little brother,then wayde and tre...let me tell you that was an interesting night...julies brother is the hugest flirt..it was kinda freaky..but it was really fun..i took jessica to my church..so hopefully she liked it enought to want to go there...but yea...brad should be coming home soon...and i'm glad cuz i missed him..even though he makes me mad sometimes...lol..but i love him..well ttyl

as good as can be expected