i know i don't blog in here but i thot that i'd write in response to melvin.

beh, what you did was very disrespectful. it wasn't like you to do something like that to me. it hurt to know that you had the audacity to violate and disrespect me the way that  you did, and to make matters worse, it was our anniv. of all the people in the world, i would've never thot that you'd do something that. just because i went easy on you on this, doesn't mean that you're excused. maybe i'm going easy on you in response to not wanting to be called a bitch for "taking it too hard on you". i wish that people would know what you did so that when they look at our relationship, they would see that i'm not the onli one that makes mistakes. tired of being stereotypicallized as the "bad guy" in this relationship, i just let this go. i hope you learned your lesson. i forgive you, but if you do me wrong like that again, i'm gonna have to go because i don't need people i love turning the tables on me and hurting me like that. i don't need that. i love you, but do it one more time and i'm gone. i'm sorry but i don't deserve the embaressment and betrayal of word you gave me.

.pointblank.

first entry in here. pimpmastah rin.. thought it would be easier if i just used my aim sn. the whole offcenterdxryder thing was gettin old too. i just wanna get back to bein the "pimpmastah".

grr.. i wasted like 4 days of xanga premium? oh well.. anywaiz, the whole friends issue has gotten the best of me these past few weeks.. especially last week. someone said something that made sense todai.. "as long as they're happy" which is troo. imma stop stressin and ish about something that i guess i should stop caring so much about it if they're just letting it slide. "gotta be a team effort" so yehh.. it's useless if it's just me. hard adapting to all these changes.. sorry to my frendz if i spazzed.. i just have a hard time adjusting to some things.. one of them being how we all are just changing and ish. yoo guyz mean a lot to me and it's a big transition from alwaiz havin yoo guyz right there to hardly talkin to yoo or buggin out. so, i apologize if i spazzed.

we had violence awareness todai. i think the onli person that i realli payed attention to was that guy in a wheelchair. he made sense too. he said life was like a pie split up into different proportions, and when one get out of balance, you think that it's over and you want to give up when you still have all the other pieces.

song of the day: barely breathing

feelin` :  `= T  okai i guess