Yesterday evening I tried to go early to bed, but instead I ended up doing homework and arranging things till half past midnight. Finally I gathered some determinatin to go to bed. I brushed my teeth and crept into my room and threw myself on my bed.
Though I was tired my head was full of irrelevant thoughts. It was as though my mind was having a dialogue on its own. Judo, relationships and faith were my main themes that night. I was trying to figure out myself, which was kind of hard. I had always thought I knew myself, and maybe I do, but clearly not well enough.
After one snowy evening, when I was discussing with a friend, I realised something. After that discussion things just weren't the same. I had discovered some things with the friend and it triggered a bigger reaction in me than I had expected. There is just so much to learn...
I leaned over my desk and yawned. The snow was steadily falling down from the sky covering the dark earth into a white veil. I was tired, but I couldnt sleep. I looked at the small clock next to me. Quarter past two am. I sighed. Maybe if I went for a walk My thoughts would be cleared from the smog they seemed to dwell in. I brighened up and grabbed my coat from near the door and peered once more outside. Still snowing, I smiled.
The night was cool and crispy and the stars were clearly visible. White snowflakes danced down from the sky just to melt on my coat. What was it that I wanted to share with the person? The question got me offguard. What person? Was this my bored mind trying to begin a conversation again, I pondered as I walked down a narrow path. It was true though, and it didnt take me long to realize I wanted to share more of myself...
Eeva
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