| | *Hey* Wuts up. Nuthin here, jus feeling all kinds of things. On Saturday, the day b4 mother's day, i asked my dad if he could take me to Wal-Mart to buy my mom a mother's day gift cuz he bought her something. He wouldn't and he wouldn't even give me any money. So I started to walk to wal-mart from my house. I kept walkin and crying. I tried to call some ppl to see if they could pick me up and do me a big favor of letting me borrow money and then i would pay them back, but i couldn't get a hold of anyone....so i kept walkin. Further down while i was walkin, my mom drove up and i got in the car. She asked dad if he would even care if i got hit by a car or died, since he was gonna let me walk to wal-mart, and he just didn't say anything and and left. So i took tht as a no. So my mom had to end up payin for her OWN mother's day present, and i'm paying her back by doing the cats for 4 weeks. I made her a fleece blanket and a fleece pillow. I just think it's messed up how my own dad wouldn't even care if I died tomorrow.
The rest of the weekend wuz ok keeping in mind tht i wasn't tlkin 2 my dad. I need money for luch 2day so i said out loud in general when dad was in the room tht i needed a check for lunch, and he didn't do shit, he doesn't care. My mom has to do everything for me. Today was pretty boring. I had 2 stay after school 2day to try and understand math. I was supposed to take a math quiz 2day but she had 2 leave so i gotta do it Thursday after school. On Saturday, it's Tristan and I's 2nd month. We're supposed 2 go to Hershey Park, but i dunno if we have a ride since now i know tht my dad doesn't care about me so he won't take us. So now i dunno if we can go. We already had his mom fuck up our 1st month not letting us see each otha, and i don't want anybody or anything to fuck up our 2nd month, it's not fair, it's wrong. If ppl knew wut love is, they would let us see each other.
Rite now Tristan is pissed off b/c of his parents, and stuff, and i try to calm him down, but he just keeps goin and gets even more pissed off. I tld him i can't even make him feel betta when i try, i just make it worse but he says i don't. He says he just doesn't stop cuz he doesn't know when, so tht's when i tld him to, cuz he must have already hit something cuz he said his knuckles are all swollen and shit. I hate it whenever he is pissed off, cuz it just gets me pissed off knowing tht he isn't happy. I wish he wouldn't have to put up with his mom, or his dad, b/c they are just fucked up and don't do anything for him, they are so rude and mean to him, i just wish he didn't have to put up wit so much negativity like i have to deal with everyday. I hate it, cuz this morning i woke up a lil late, and when i got in the car, my brother starts bitchin at me b/c i woke up late. He said the next time i wake up late he eitha won't take me to school, or i can't take a shower....but he's just pissed off cuz he didn't have enough of time to get high b4 school. He always gets pissed off and bitches at me when he doesn't get high in the morning. I just think tht's fucked up. And my mom told my brother and dad she doesn't want anymore negativity 2 me, but they don't listen anyway. My mom is the only one in my family who cares. Fuck my brother and dad, i can't wait till my brother moves to Florida in September for art college. Then i won't have to put up wit his bullshit, just my dad's.
But hey, i'ma go, i'll write more some otha time. I love all the people who care about me and write me comments, i hardly get any comments anymore. And Tristan, i love you so0o0o0o much babi, u are my everything and i dunno wut i would do w/out you. You have my life layin in the palm of ur hands, and i love you so0o0o0o0o0o much!!! 6 DAYS TILL OUR 2ND MONTH!!! I love you babi, i'm yours always and forever! PeAcE everyone...i'm out.
*((Amy*Lynn))*  |
