Wow, so it's been a real long time since i updated this thing.. so much has happened.. so brace yourself it's going to be a real long entry..... Me and matt are wonderful i don't know what i would do with out him! He means so much to me!! I love you baby!! O!! we went to worlds of fun last week and he played wacky worm (the hardest game there) and the first time he tried he won!! He gave me this HUGE dog! it's really big!! It's amazing! It was even funnier getting that thing into my car!  Anyways.. thats see what else has been going on?!?! 

*One of my real good friends....daddy died a couple of days ago.. i just want to let her know that the whole team is here for her! We love her.. and that her and her mommy and brother are in our thoughts and prayers and i just want to let you know kat that you are doing amazing! Your a real strong person!! Your our star!! Stay bright and shinny!! I love you babe! We are all here for you!!*

Okay... i've been reading all my friends entries and they keep saying how selfish they are.. and how much they think their life is bad and then they see someone elses life that is just a little worse... i just want to say that no ones life is perfect... we like to think that they are at times but then something bad happens and their world that they had once known had turned upside down.. it take different people different life experiences to know that there is always someone else out there that has something worse going on!  I think little miss Julie said it the best..."Something bad has to happen or else nothing good would come out of it" For me it was my brother dying that made me realize all of this stuff.. i mean as terrible it was when he passed away.. all i can think of is when he was with us here that he couldn't walk or talk or do anything.. and come on really.. what kind of life is that.. all he could do was eat sleep and watch tv and swimming.. but i mean thats really not a life that i for one would want to live.. so now all i think about is that he is up above walking.. running and doing EVERYTHING that he couldn't do down here with us.. and i bet you hes having the time of his life! I love him so much but i know deep down know matter how much i hate it.. i know that he is pain free.. and looking down on me and my family telling us thats hes finally free... it's hard to beleive that it's already been 4 years.. well almost four years... he died July 15, 2001 and thats almost four years.. God.. okay enough on that subject..

Okay synchro is going pretty good.. i love my team.. they are amazing.. it's really amazing on how we all pull togehter when times get tough! We really are a team.. we all get along so great!  We are one big family!!  The only thing that i don't like about synchro isn't really about synchro.. it's about sprinting and running in the 100 degree weather and having a trainer that doesn't give a shit about you or the sport that you love doing.. i'm sorry marc but we can do this without you.. we became ICE SKATERS because we do not like the heat.. and we are not runners... we can do distant but we DON'T do SPRINTS! Get that through your THINK FRENCH brain!! God i can't stand you.. anywho.. We got a new system of judging.. and i don't know if it's going to be good or bad..but it's really a complicated thing so i'm not going to go into any more details about that..

Well the fourth of July is coming up and i'm going to the lake.. but matts parents wont let him go this time.. so we leave thursday afternoon and we don't come back until monday early afternoon.. so atleast i will be with him on the fourth.. but i'm not sure how i'm going to take being away from him for like four days.. it's going to be a depressing four days.. i hope that they go by fast...  Well work is going fine.. i want to find another job though.. i want to find somethin to do in the morning.. i mean i don't really wake up much before 11.. and i don't work until 4 i need to start waking up earlier and going to bed earlier.. but yea.. i just don't know..

Well you guys probably HATE me because this entry is so long!!! but leave me comments and make me feel loved! I love you all!!

Kat your in our thoughts and prayers.. stay strong Viv!! I got your back if you need anything.. you know the ditgets!

Well i know.. enough enough!! It's time for me to go to bed anyways!!

Oh wait.. just one more thing.. The Rascal Flatts concert is July 22nd! i can't wait it's going to be simply amazing!! Me and matt are going but if you want to go the lawn tickets aren't much at all so you should really think about going! It's going to be breath Taking! hehe i know i know.. i need to go!

  Love
Princess
  xoxo

R.I.P-Steve Patke

Wow so i don't think i've ever udated this quickly.. but i'm really bored and i'm waiting for the mall to open up so i can go shopping... yay!  Matt finally comes home today... it's only been two days but it seems likes more!  I miss him a lot! Tonight is our skating banquet at strauds i think i'm not to sure... but it should be fun!  Work is going okay.. last night we weren't to busy but we had a full house for most of the night which is a good thing.. as soon as i'm done at the mall i'm going to go pick up my tips and then go to aeropostale!! I'm exicited about that.. i need new shorts to wear to work i'm tired of wearing the same ones over and over again.. (don't worry guys i wash them)!! Right now we have friends from st. louis in.. actually our old next door neighbors.. there pretty cool.. right now they are at church though.. and then for fathers day weekend we have a lot of our friends coming down and all the dads are going fishing or something and the moms and the kids are going to go spend money! sounds fun?!?! sounds like a plan to me.. i have a lot of money but it's not fair because i cna't really spend it all.. it's all in my savings!  but it's a good thing i don't really need to just blow 1000 dollars.. i can blow some of it but i need to save the rest of it!  i guess... well for a while at least.. hehe... well i'm kinda tired of typing.. so i'm going to go.. talk to you later
I LOVE MATHEW EDWARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Love
Princess
  xoxo

Hey guys it's been awhile! Just thought since i'm bored outta my mind right now that i would udate.. Well i am in love with matt.. it's final.. i've never felt this way about anyone.. and he went to the lake with me and my family this past weekend and we had my family graduation party up there and my whole family met him and they love him! so thats good!  Matt got along so good with everyone.. but i think the person matt got along witht he most would be my cousin lonnie.. he has some problems with him.. but lonnie and matt had a ball it was really funny! The funniest part of the trip was skiing.. matt tried to ski but it didn't really work! but were going to keep working on it!  Hes going to get up and thats final!  But me and corey skiied and the first time i shot right out of the water and corey fell and then the second time cory got out of the water and i got knocked down by some waves.. and then we finally both go up and it was a lot of fun!  God that weekend was the best ever... it doesn't quite seem like summer yet.. it's still a little chilly outside.. it needs to be sunny and not rainy i want to go to the pool and get a good tan..

This coming tuesday i go and schdule all of my classes for my first year of college.. it's really wierd i know.. i can't beleive that i'm starting college.. it seems like last year i was a freshmen at park hill scared.. and now i'm outta there.. it's really great but it doesn't seem real yet.. i don't think it's hit me!  Well i don't think i would ever say this.. but i love my job.. i love my managers.. it's all great! the servers are awesome and all the bussers are great too!  i love working.. wish i got paid a little more but hey.. it's all good!  O YEA i finally got my ring! my mommy and daddy got me this awesome pink diamond ring for graduation and i love it it's really b-e-a-u-t-i-ful  it's great.

Well matt left me this morning to go with his mom and his brother to illionis again.. we were just there last weekend but his mommy is making him go again.. he will be back on sunday.. he was suppose to go to the skating banquet with me but he can't anymore.. so if any of the skaters need an extra ticket.. then i'm pretty sure we still have one.. just ask!!!  Well i'm vored.. i think i'm going to go find something else to do.. i dunno.. i work tonight and then yeah i dunno.. we have friends from st. louis who are coming over so yea.. and then tomorrow i work again.. yay! money.. well i gotta go.. leave lots and lots of comments if you love me!!!

  Love
Princess
  xoxo
I LOVE YOU MATHEW W. EDWARDS!!!!

WOW i don't know where to start.. besides that i'm a high school graduate.. and i dont' think that it has really hit me yet... i mean nothing is really different.. hmm.. well my first graduation party was a lot of fun.. and graduation was very nerve racking for me maggie faye leah and sara fisher.. we were afraid we were going to mess up or trip and fall it was really funny.. for gradution my mommy and daddy bought me a 800 dollar pink diamond ring.. it's really pretty but i wont get it for a couple of weeks.. and i am really looking forward to next weekend because matt is going to illionis with us for my other graduation party i'm really looking forward to it! it's going to be a lot of fun!!!! work is fine.. kinda borning last night but thats okay.. matt comes home tomorrow from being at his grandpas.. i miss him.. but it's only been like a day.. but ryan says thats why i don't feel good.. hmm.. i dunno... but amanda and ryan are "talking"... i hope that turns out good that way she can't get mad at me for wanting to spend time with matt.. because she will know what it's like to have someone to care so much about her and i think that ryan will be that guy.. i think that they will be good for eachother.. ryan is a sweetheart!  i think hes just waht amanda needs.. but yeah... don't know what else to say.. so i'm going to finish burning my cds.. so i will talk to you later! leave me lots of comments!!

  Love
Pincess
  xoxo

Hey guys whats going on.. again it's been awhile but at least i'm updating it now...

Both proms were amazing i love matt so much!  it was awesome.. the shows were awesome.. i'm glad and sad that it is over.. it was a lot of fun.. and very nerve racking.. but me kath and crystal are pros now.. haha not.. i can't beleive it's all over.. it seems like just yesterday we were talking about what the show was going to be about.. and now it's over.. wierd! But everyone did great.. (julie sorry i didn't have your fan ready for you i was stripping for my next number haha.. it seemed like every time i stepped behind the curtain i was stripping! haha great times!

Well it's hard to beleive that i only have 2 1/2 days left of high school.. and that this time next sunday i will be getting my named called and walking across the stage.. it's scary to think about but i think i'm ready for it!

Matt i love you so much i don't know what i would do with out you... your amazing... i don't know of any other guy that would follow his girl friend to her house from his house just to give her her mothers day card that she forgot in your room.. you could have just called and i would have met you somewhere to get it.. but you decided to follow me all the way home.. your SO adorable! love you so much! the lake is going to be so awesome! i love you darling!

Love
Princess

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY..

O.. today is my brothers 21st birthday.. even though his in heaven throwing himself a bday party were down he celebrating it also.. his forever in my heart! i love you and miss you so much lil/big bro... keep looking down on me mom and dad we all love and miss you so much!