This is for you...my gong gong: Grandpa went to heaven.

My grandfather passed away last week and I didn't go to the funeral. I wanted to. But it will cost me my entire savings to go. So I gaved my dad some money for the flowers instead. I wanted to see my grandpa before he got buried but what's the point? He left already, and I know he's in heaven with my grandma, Jesus and God now.

What happen was a shock to everyone in my family. Especially to my youngest aunt. She knocked on my room door one night and I open to see her burst in tears. She seems to love grandpa the most. My grandpa was actually going to have a minor surgery on his eye but it seems the doc did something wrong and he tried to stop the bleeding. After that, i'm not very sure, it was bleeding somewhere else internally and no one knows. By the time they found out, he was gone already.

I was telling my relatives that maybe he can't wait to see grandma in heaven, that's y he left. I told them that to cheer them up. My grandma passed away 10 years ago. Grandpa must have missed her dearly and now they are in heaven together. I know I will definitely see them again.

The sad thing is I, well, everyone din even get to say goodbye. I wanted to meet him after graduating in law and how proud he will be of me! I never see him after I came uk, and now i never will. He saw me grew up. I used to take naps in his room, not minding his pillow is always smell of his hair cream. I used to cut his feet nails for him because he couldn't reach them.

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Dear gong gong,

Though I never did say it, I do love you, my gong gong.  I love you and I miss you.

Good bye.

Love,

You precious grand daughter

Rebecca

I deserves it...pls dun take it away

Currently lost half of my job. Instead of full time shifts, it was reduced to part time with only 3 days work. My youngest sis came to UK with no fault of my own for 3 years to study. Resulting me being asked for money for her. I want to go Europe trip. I've never left UK since I came here more than a year liao. Parents no money to pay for me trip, I know, so i never dare to ask. There's no other way but to earn it myself. Who knows just a few days ago i'm being asked for money to pay my sis's rent.  I really really want to go Europe. Coz I know once I back m'sia...I will never come back here again. If you were me, how would you feel?

I'm just trying to get the things that I want by earning it myself. Is it too selfish to ask them not to take it away form me? 

UK: Weird things happen

You can see smoke when you pee. Y? Coz it's so cold here that your pee is hot enough for you to see it emit hot air. +_+"

UK is a different world...

I used to learn that if you have nothing to talk about, talk about the weather.

It is not true here in UK. We ALWAYS talk about the weather. Y? Coz the weather here is...wat's the word? Amusing. it changes so fast that it still even amuses the older folks who have been livng in UK for as long as they live(50ish age group). The weather becomes a very interesting topic other than just to "fill in the silence". Imagine if I talk about the weather in Malaysia..."so hot ah!""..."ya, so hot oh!"..."hey, it's hot just now, it still hot now oh!"..."...the weather forecast say it will be hot today, tomorrow, the day after, the day after after,..." +_+"

"Watch where you walk."

Partly true of in uk of coz, no matter where you are. I use to watch where I walk very intensely when I walk around my neighbourhood in kk. Y? coz scare of stepping on dig poo...In UK leh, hardly can find dog poo lying around. 1st, coz will get fine for "littering". Yup, YOUR DOG's poo is YOUR litter. Most and nearly all dogs you see in UK has an ownder. Strays are caught in the hound. Malaysia scenario: "hey! your dog shit lar...", "Ya! I know ah, good for the grass right?" "..."2ndly, I FEEL where I walk. At every pavement for you to cross the road here, there's a lot of horrible big bumps sticking out to hurt your feet. Platforms shoes should be sold here with a "CAUTION of TRIPPING" sign. 

Lawyers have more pride than waiters.

Very true in Malaysia but from my very own experience here, ABSOLUTELY NOT TRUE IN UK. Clients are allowed to SCOLD, ACCUSE, SHOUT and HUMILIATE lawyers but if any of those happen to a waiter; the waiter is allowed to talk back to the customer by saying "Our staff have the right to be treated with respect and we do not tolerate this kind of behaviour.  Please LEAVE THE PREMISES." No wonder I like waitressing, I feel more like a lawyer when I can say that! ;)

Update looo....

Hey...sorry guys. Din know u guys so desparate for my update =p  jk...ok, here goes, u asked for it!

I was erm...a bit stressed up for a while there but i'm alright now. I worked for my aunt for 3 mths in her law firm and I wasn't totally for it. EVERYONE will think it's a good opportunity bla bla bla...but I wasn't happy. Y? I also dunno. of course also got some influences of family politics. U know la...working for ur own relatives....I just dunno y I felt so pressured until I can't even hear myself think and do things properly. I really dunno...it definitely put me off LAW itself even. But right now, i am VERY happy. I'm back to waitressing. I felt happy doing my job. the 3 mths in law firm actually make me appreciate my waitressing job more (I used to hate it coz it was hard work physically but being presured and stressed is HARDER!). It's same pay here for both of the jobs. Waitressing so much more less stress and it makes my smile worth much more. Sumore, every often I get compliments here and there. Besides the fact it's tiring physically I feel so much more happier.

Anyway, tat's present...as for future....I really not sure wat to do frankly. After the SHOCK I got from working in that law firm...it could be the very bad experience make me feel like mayb i'm not suited to do law anyway? With the Law degree I have now, EVERYONE expecting me to be a lawyer. If anyone know me well or long enough at all, will realise that I hate being restricted. For example my dear Karen would have known that I'm ALWAYS "rebellious" - is the common way of putting it. I would much prefer - "different". I think the thinking of - Law degree = Lawyer (I assume the very plain definition fo this word)- is VERY conservative and restricted. I admit I may have been interested in law but (if u know me-again) you would noticed I am interested in a lot of things. I like to think of other possible options.

Besides the point of looking at $$$$$$$ I really dun like working in a working environment like that. I wonder if it's any different if I were working in a big law firm with more pleasent environment? (I wonder...will it ever possible to work with STRESSFUL lawyers but in PLEASENT environment? O_o?) If it's not, then I would prefer doing other things that I like and mayb something that relates to law as well so that no one will ever gonna say to me:"so waste ah...the things you have been studying ah...for the past 3 years for your LAW DEGREE ah...!" +_+"""""

So, any ideas of more interesting job requiring a law degee?

Love always,

becky