32 years of life. Age is but a number. I don't feel 32 or do I? I have never been 32 so how can I know what it should feel like? I do know I feel more alive than I ever have....
My childhood was pretty easy. I am an only child so I have never had to deal with siblings. Yet I have 4 kids, what was I thinking? I had a space that was all mine Oh how I long for that again and I never had to share my parents. When I was younger my mom stayed home. As I got older , mom started working. Eventually I came home to an empty house again how I long for a few minutes of emptiness. Then I had nights where mom worked late and dad was out of town.It didn't seem to tramatic then but now I know it was very lonely. Yet I survived. I was an ok teen. I did experiment with drinking, smoking and skipping school. I outgrew most of that. I still drink occasionally and I have skipped some college classes. I got involved in sex @ 16. once you start that you can't go back...ever... Played that safe until I got married. I had 4 serious relations Dom, Bill (first love& kicking self), Tony (stupid) & Michael (forever). I also had a few minor relations. Greg (still kicking self), Rick (fun & scary). I had some one night stands. Those will remain unnamed. Moved out at 18. stupid, stupid, stupid. Married at age 21.
I became a mom at 22. Depression & insanity set in. Therapy and drugs antidepressants became a part of my life. So I added 3 more kids to the pot. Again what was I thinking? Yet 10 years later, I am a survivor. I am in control of my life. I love me.
What I have learned & want mykids to learn:
*Don't rush life. Stay young while you can.
Growing up and being an adult is fun, yet scary, and going home is never the same.
*Move with care and live everyday to the fullest.
You have no idea how short your life can be.
* Love yourself.
Be proud of who you are. Don't change your image and be what they others think you should be. Be positive & be happy!
*Love others.
Hate is ugly & it makes you ugly. Give love - you don't know when you are making a difference. Doesn't need to be an I love you. You could give a smile or hello. Hold open a door. Help someone out.
*Love your children.
Be there for them. Spend time with them. Listen to what they have to say. Learn from what they teach you. Hug & Kiss them often.
*Love your spouse.
Communicate and listen. Never go away mad. Appreciate them. Say I love you & mean it.
*Love your parents.
When all else fails you are loved & welcomesd by them.
I thank everyone who is a part of my life or has passed through my life. Those friends, family & teachers that have been there for me. Those who have guided & taught me the way. Those who accept me for me & don't expect me to change.
Lastly I love all my Xanga friends, who have inspired me and listen to me....
Thank-you!
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**sniffles** What a lovely timeline, and wonderful advice for your children, or for anyone, really.
I'll be 32 in September this year. No kids for us, got married at 26 to my first love and my first real boyfriend. I had a couple friends that were boys, but before I met my hubby, I thought guys were icky. :D I moved out at 26, only because I got married. Started to drive that same year too (even though I had my license since 16).
"Going home is never the same" but we are moving in with my parents soon (eeps) to save for a house. We love my parents to pieces and they are thrilled that we are coming to stay for a bit. I just hope we survive the excitement... O_O
Wonderful! Really!
@blurofego - Thank-you!
RYC: Thank You!!