Wednesday, September 19, 2007
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Vicious Cycle
So the vicious cycle begins again. I find myself out of work and searching for that job or career that will allow me to make money while pursuing my passions. Unfortuantely, for the time being, those two things cannot be the same thing. But as my heart is broken for the worry and stress that this causes me and my family, I am also heart broken for this circumstance as well. I am embarassed to always be job hunting and embarassed that I am as old as I am and don't have a degree. I am embarassed that it seems like everytime I am with friends I have to talk about this lack of stability and inconsistency.
Even though I know in my heart that my identity is not and should not be wrapped up in what I do for a job, it is so hard to get my mind to follow suit. Because really, I know that I believe that my job title defines me. And I wish this were not true. If I allow myself to believe that "I am what I do", then who am I now?
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Comments (5)
Have we not discussed the fact that we are not what we do? Oh, well. It's okay. I understand. I'm in the same boat. Maybe if we paddle together, we'll get somewhere.
I love you.
I don't know what to say, here, because you really know the deal. I can simply offer my prayers and ears.
Vent away!!! Where here to listen!! Just know that this is not new to God. He'll provide!!! I stand on that!!
We are what we choose to be. Hang in there. Things will get better.