Konbanwa* (((Current Mood Bleh)))

Like i said Many times this summer... Summer is almost over and it has gone by so fast. Alot of things happened this summer...I learned... or experienced alot of them. Like for instance... Never let a guy in between you and ur best friend... even if the guy is one of your good friends... dont let that person go in between you two... If you think one of you must have this guy...dont... make it so that none of you can have him. Because later... you'll deeply regret ever fighting about it... and you realized that you've wasted precious time with ur friend, and instead using that time to fight with them. This summer... i also realized who i can... count on, and who i can't count on. If you say "i'll be here for you" or "I'm here to listen if you need me" really mean it... because when that person you tell that to comes to you... and realizes that you dont mean it, then it just hurts you more. I don't get people who call their old boyfriends or girlfriends their ex... i dunno, its like... i wouldnt see them as an 'ex' or just like an old boyfriend or anything... i would see them as someone u've went out with in the past... and call them by their name instead of as ur 'ex... i dont know... but its just strange to me.

Meghan showed me something her cousin wrote... and i thought it was so kewl... "i know it doesn't really matter much at this point... and i guess i'm not helping the situation, but i just miss him. a lot. more than anyone can ever imagine. I just wish he would stop going to the extremes to prove something so stupid to me. I get the point and I do try so very freakin hard to feel the same way, but the truth is, I don't. I know I'm in denial of the fact that he doesn't even treat me like a friend. And maybe I'm stupid, but he's the only guy I've ever really truly cared for. He's seriously the only person I've ever tried to force myself to hate, and have found it virtually impossible to do so. But he'll never know that. And even if he does, it won't change anything. I just hate myself for being so stupid. I remember talking to Angelica in the beginning of the summer and I told her I had a feeling I was gonna be bummed all summer and she told me he wasnt that great and I'll get over it, but its been 3 months now and guess what?! I'm as down as I'll ever be. I've always wanted to blame him for it, but I guess I have yet to blame myself. I just need to learn to get over things. Things that weren't meant to be. Things that were way beyond my grasp. Its supposed to be one of the best summers of my life. The summer I turn 18. The summer before college. Yet it has been nothing but diappointments over and over again."



*Edit*

(got this from Jannette who got it from her friend who got it from somewhere online)

Dear Friend,
When you are sad... I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
When you are blue... I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
When you smile... I'll know you finally got laid
When you are scared... I'll nag about it every chance i get.
When you are worried... I'll tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
When you are confused... I'll use big words to confuse your drunk ass even more.
When you fall... I will point and laugh at you while you lie on the ground.

This is my oath... i pledge till the end. Why? You may ask, because ur my friend. but most of all, because at one point or another, you did or will do the same for me. Thanks for everything you've given me: humor, drama, support, and a little push.

QOTD:
M1staCh1pMunk: if u fell i would be like u okay?
M1staCh1pMunk: den hlp u up and if ur okay den i laugh at u
M1staCh1pMunk: :D