I gave him my heart and my soul... if I had a problem... I went to him... if wanted to share something... I went to him... if I wanted to do something... I'd ask him if he wanted to do something first.. I would include asking him into everything... and when he did come... I was overjoyed... I wanted to glomp him ^.^... yes I miss him... if you were me... wouldn't you? he says he's changed... I believe that to be utter bull... utter bull... I never lied to him... or hid anything from him... I never wanted stuff from him... if he got me something it was awesome... but I woulda been fine if all he did was show up and hold me for an hour or two and talk with me and play games with me...

I almost had a car wreck yesterday.. I was crying my eyes out... and I didn't see where the car was going... I'm safe... mom is going to drive me today... I've changed to... I'm more confidant... I say what I mean... I let people hug me and hold me... darren hugged me and held me and so did mom , erin,alicia and ashley...  a few years ago... I wouldn't have let them do that... I woulda seen it as weakness... but now... I see that they care about me... and want me to be ok... I want to be ok too... I feel less sad today... *I do feel kinda sick* it's ok alicia... I know I got the cold from ya, but it's ok with me ^.^v... erin and I came up with a funny slogan yesterday... LSWD40... get's ya high and turns that squeak to a sigh...

I have to work today... I hope sid's ok... rusty's worried too.. he's been trying really hard to get ahold of sid... and alicia's worried about rusty... and the line never ends... Sid if you're out there... we hope you're ok... I'm sorry about my other post being so brash... but... if you were me.. wouldn't you feel the same amount of emotion?...

everyone has inside of them.. the id... the ego and the super ego...which one will you listen to?