yah... I was gone for a while..  I just had to get away ^.^... this little old lady comes up to me... taps me on the shoulder and says 'your pain will soon be gone'... I know... freaky... then I had to return carts... and this guy just kept stepping infront of me... so I just started doing that theme song from jaws, got a little giggle from that... yes I'm still sad... but... all we have in life is time...  I still love sid... but obviously I'm alone in this thought... so I have to try my darndest to keep going... nick I woulda called ya to talk.. just can't find your #....

thanks for the presents everyone... I got books and a couple of movies... and my uncle paul got me a shirt with the little mermaid on it... the card was a little odd though...it has a pic of Ariel and it says 'you'll have to do better than that boys... if you want to catch me' =p he has a funny sense of humor...

Rusty I adore the book you gave me 'The Darwin Awards'... I always wanted to look at it.. no one ever showed me... now I can YAYAYAY =p

Aunt Nancy got me a knitting kit, now I can learn how to knit =) YAYAYAYAY I'm going to make a scarf...

Uncle Leroy got me movies.. Pirates of the Carribean 2 and I think The Chronicles of Narnia 'the lion the witch and the wardrobe' special extended version... *it didn't have a lable on it... it coulda been for darren but darren doesn't care for that film so.. we just sorta put it in my pile*..

Alicia got me 3 books and a hair pin and some candy @.@ sweetness =)

Kayla got me soaps and some make up and and some nail polish and make up bags =)

it's so empty outside.. all houses on all angles are empty... it's only my mom and I ... feels like a Demiliterized zone... we're going to see some movies.. I was excited before... now it's a chore to get up and put on clothes.. I don't care if I walk around nude...eh... might go to bug alicia for a bit... Oh.. I thought of the perfect revenge... simple... but harsh... but then...  I can't hurt him... can't ...he turned me into an optimist... I have hope... hope... that's what I have.. Merry Christmas to one and all ^.^