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I was listening to a preacher this morning and he said, like I've
heard before, if you read the bible with the understanding and simple
faith of a little child you will understand. It was written by
fishermen! He qualified it with the statement that we must have the
right heart.
Why then can I not understand half of what I read?! I don't understand
the application of much of it...No matter how hard I pray for the right
heart and wisdom...why don't I recieve it? Or perhaps I'm recieving it
and not seeing it!? Perhaps I will not see it.
I'm soo frusterated lately..I want the christian walk to come easy. I
am sick of struggling with sin. Sick of doing what I don't want to do
and not doing what I want to do.
Frusterated to the point of giving up, but I know that's what Satan
wants. So I won't do that. I think I'm under major spiritual
attack--condemnation, confusion, depression....all things of Satan and
I want to throw them off...but this means confronting my attitudes and
drawing near to Christ...whom I feel so inadaquate to love. I'm trapped
in this circle of doubt...doubting my worthiness and then feeling
guilty for doubting Jesus's love.
Please pray for me.
-=shell=-
Comments (2)
I think your preacher is wrong. You can't simply come to the Bible with the simple faith of a child. It's contradictory, confusing, hard to read, harder to accept, and hardest to live. Simple faith may have worked as a child, but you can't stay that way forever. Even the Bible says so-- "When I was a child, I used to talk as a child, think as a child, reason as a child; when I became a man, I put aside childish things." and Ecclesiastes 3:1-8.
I understand and empathize (as I've said before) with you completely. Faith is a difficult thing, and often require all of our skills to contemplate. Faith is a demanding thing - it tests us at every turn and confronts us when we least expect it. Despite of all that, however, it forms our bedrock and our cornerstone (at least it does mine).
I hope I've helped a little. You can call/IM if you feel the need.