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Friday, June 27, 2008

Currently Listening
Worlds Collide
By Apocalyptica
I'm not Jesus
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Not liking this economy

Got some real harsh slaps today in the budget area of my ass. Thanks to the responsibilities I've got (which, thankfully are few), I've got very little paycheck left at the end of the month. With gas prices rising, I'm doing less, and spending more. I think my last big hurrah for the year was buying Metal Gear Solid 4, and a bike. I know... boo hoo, we're all in the same boat. I am going somewhere with this though. My budget allows ever so finite changes, so when I received my lease renewal today, a tiny $40 increase was like an iron punch to the gut.

I'm left with a few choices.

1) Find another place. If I'm lucky, I'll find something half the size for what I'm paying now.

2) Get a second job. BK is paying $10 an hour now, so I could try for just a few days a week. A friend offered to help me get a job that would be a good $5-6 an hour more than what I am earning now, but I would so get my ass fired from a machine shop in record time, so options are that second job thing.

3) Get a roommate. This one is preffered... for now (it's been a while since I had a real roommate). The apartment is large, so we'd both have our space, and honestly... $250 (half the full rent) plus utilities and cable that usually never top $120 a month total would be a sweet deal. The problem with that is finding someone acceptable.

So readers... if you need a place to stay, or know someone trust worthy, get in touch. My landlords were good enough to let me know two months in advance, so I'll need help by September. Not a huge rush. Plenty of time to get used to the idea of flipping burgers too.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Currently Gaming
Metal Gear Solid 4
By Konami
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Venting, not a threat at the government

I've had a pretty decent week. I wouldn't say it has been stress free, but it has been pretty decent. I now have professional medical care, for however much that counts (one more step to adulthood!!!), I've realized I've gone almost 3 months without calling into work (the depression is under control for now), and ... I've had a chance to not only look after my needs to let go and just have fun, but also get some long overdue cleaning done.

I do have to vent though. Today's problem is brought to you by the fucking USPS. Gotta love government agencies. Today, I had some stuff to mail. My stamps are from about 5 months ago, so of course, they are a fucking cent short of postage. I love how they get out and let people know that rates are going up. I made several stops thinking "hey, rates just went up, there should be plenty of 1 cent stamps to buy". No one. After hitting Albertson's, and a couple of mini marts, I decide to hit the post office. It was 8 o'clock, but I knew they had a vending machine for after hours. Or did rather. In it's place was a sign that said "Stamp machine removed for your convenience", and then went on to say how convenient purchasing stamps while the post office was open was. It's a damn good thing it's so fucking convenient, because I would have to miss fucking work to get there while they are fucking open. Awesome. I get to lose probably at least 45 minutes pay, and drive off 3 miles round trip worth of gas to buy $0.15 worth of fucking stamps. Not that doing that would even help, when I wasn't aware of the change till I left work. Now I get to put 2 full price stamps on a something I need postmarked by tomorrow to keep my life in order. ...and then JOY!, I get to find some time to take time off work to go and buy stamps so I don't lose money on the ones I bought not that long ago.

God, I can't wait until I get back to being able to pay my bills all online again. The postal system go die and rot for all it's use. There hasn't been a single thing they can't screw up.

Friday, June 06, 2008

Currently Listening
Mezzanine
By Massive Attack
Teardrop
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WWSD

I almost have a movement started at work. We've all heard of WWJD, right? Well there nothing more fun than to punch a Jesus freak in the Solar Plexus so hard their kidneys make rough boob shapes in their backs, and then co-opt there flimsy belief structures for something whimsical, so I substituted Jesus with Shattner. Ostensibly it is to provide humorous release by making jokes about beaming the customer away, telling them to fuck off course 180 mark 0-0 warp factor 9, or occasionally comfort myself that even famous people need to lose some wait. What it's really for is to disguise the perfect development of my own Corbomite maneuver. Go ahead and look it up, and then just wonder how it could be applied to a last day at work...

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Currently Reading
Rebel Fay (Noble Dead)
By Barb Hendee, J.C. Hendee
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More Bitching

If I wanted to raise retarded children, I would. I don't though, so people need to start using there fucking brains. It's not hard. They're usually right there in those thick skulls, prewired for thought and everything. If I can get through one day without being asked a stupid question that would be awesome. Can you tell that work sucked?

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Currently Gaming
Grand Theft Auto IV
By Rockstar Games
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Sage Words

I think Tommy Lee Jones had the best reply to the phrase "Better to love and lost" that I have ever heard.

"Try it."

We all eventually do, in some way or another. It's one of life's most painful lessons. What does it teach though? Context to analyze your loneliness, anger, or despair? Does that diminish these things, or in any way make them more bearable?

My impulse is to say no. After a lot of thinking, all I've come up with is a more focused fury about the inequality and unfairness of real life, and a crushing sense of failure at not having learned anything, or being able to make a small step to being a better man. Still, what am I to do, but blindly grope forward, and try and make another mistake to finally be illuminated.

Poop. :)