I seem to be in a zone of some sort. Nothing is really bothering me as much lately. It may have something to do with the fact that I've taken the time to treat myself out of my last pay check, or that I'm just learning to accept things for what they are, or maybe I'm just not getting enough sleep.
My brother is in for surgery again. The last few times in the past year or so have been pretty minor, so this being one of those possibly lose a limb visits is kind of a big thing. I haven't been shy about the fact that I think he's been a dumbass with the not keeping better care of himself, so that may explain why I'm not freaking out about his serious problems. Could be an unshakable universal calm, could be the Taco Bell.
My mom is juggling this, along with providing a safety net for practically everyone in the Casper area, and I think it's wearing her down. She takes care of my youngest sisters child, my brother will soon be moving back in with her since he won't be able to work for a while and has dug himself an epic hole, my brothers fiance(?) has her running to Walmart all hours of the night, and for some reason she decided to get involved in CASA. I feel like I should step in and calm some people the fuck down, but all I can think of doing is punching some faces, and for some reason, that really doesn't seem appropriate, or worth the inevitable consequences.
Not so Zen now I guess. Meh. A few hours of MGSO, when the server goes live will get me feeling good and numb to violence. Rigth now, with everything going on, and there is a bit more that I won't detail here (guys gotta keep some secrets), thats the thing thats foremost in my mind. When will the Beta go live, and will it kick ass? Even if it doesn't, I've got GTA4 coming on Tuesday, so I can blame the ultra-violence that will come from my resulting cool withdraw on that. GTA made me do it. Speaking of that, I'm hoping to get an update of my site up for the game. I can't promise though, since I may need to compete in laziness with someone. Lol.
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