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  • Yesterday, I rebeled majorly. I went out to eat with Ashleigh and Josh before the game last night and we went to Chinese. Yummy. Chinese is my weakness food. I cannot resist...that makes me feel so inferiour to food. Oh,…

  • Well, this past week has been a journey. Not wanting to have an ED, then being proud of having an ED...trying to not have an ED...then giving up on trying and just being content with my ED. I guess that's all I can do no…

  • Quite contradictory to my header, I did stop. I screwed up, I quit the fast. And on the first day too. Last night, I ate. And I didn't eat like a banana or soemthing small like that. 9 buffalo wings. I could barely breat…

  • So, tomorrow starts my 5 day fast. I'm nervous, scared that I'll fuck it up. I just hope that the fact that I have to go back to Jess and tell her if I've eaten or not will keep me going throught the week. I found out t…

  • Current Weight:111 I'm getting back to all of you guy's comments, so don't fret babies. lol Well, me and Jess have decided to move our fast up a week. So, we start this coming Monday the 22nd. I'm looking forward to it…

  • So, I just got home and I'm currently somewhere between 112 and 111. I fasted for a whole day, and I wanted to make it 3, but I'm having really bad hunger pains. It hurts so bad. So, I think I'm gonna snack and that'l…

  • Ana, you're my obssesion...I'll love you to the bones. Last night I ate around 12, and then I purged. I was slightly proud of myself cause I finally figured out how to do it. And food actually came up this time. I didn'…

  • Todays intake so far: 1 grape Please keep leaving comments on yesterday's post. I'm not kidding about needing advice yall. And if your confused on the story, the one from the day before that explains some. Thanks! Edi…

  • So, I saw Jed 2 days in a row, and I still haven't told him about my eating disorder or my cutting. Or the fact that I might love him, too. He told me that he loved me before our 2 month anniversary. And I honestly did n…

  • Here's a comment I left a new friend today explaining my "story" with anorexia. Well, before I went into middle school (kindergarten-5th), I was always under 80 lbs. Like, in 3rd grade I think I was like 70 lbs at the mo…

  • So, last night I weighed myself before I went to bed, waaay after I had eaten 1 slice of pizza...ugh my dad made me. But, anyway, it was a little under 110. Which means I weigh a little under 112, hopefully 111.5. I hope…

  • Tomorrow I go back to school. Yesterday I saw my ex-bulimic friend, Anna, and I spent the night with her. We talked for about an hour outside while we smoked our lovely ciggarettes about cutting and our eating disorders.…

  • Todays intake: B-2 Toaster Strudels-380 cals (190 per pastry) D-Pasta with veggies and chicken-360 cals Snack-Fruity Pebbles-110 cals Total: 850 cals. Ugh, I'm not eating anymore today..

  • Current Weight: 113 lbs Grade: Junior Shirt Size-Small or X Small Jean size- Well, I wear 7 cause I like them to be baggy, but I'm supposed to wear a 5. Hair Color/Style: Red/Brown layered a lil past my shoulders. Eye Co…

  • Saturday I had a breakdown. You all may remember me talking about my scale being messed up...and how it tells you like a couple pounds under your real weight or over? Well, I went to see my friend Chelsey, and she has on…