I've been trying to figure out the whole blog thing.  I'm a fairly private person and I'm constantly analyzing myself (probably too much) in order to continue improving who I am.  So, most of my thoughts are too personal to share on the web, but I've wanted to contribute.  I love reading other people's blogs and hearing where my friends' minds are (although some of you are awfully weird ). 

So here goes nothing...

For those of you that don't know, my mom is getting remarried.  Dad passed away about five years ago, so I'm happy that my mom has found someone to share her life with.  It's just weird and hard and wonderful all at the same time.

Emeka, my African dad, is really cool; he is definitely a man of God which I really admire.  He is sweet with my mom and he encourages her to grow which I love (that's EXACTLY what a spouse should do).  But, he's not my Daddy; my Daddy is in heaven now.  It's hard to have someone step into that same role in my mom's life, and yet not be the same loved-one that I'm accustomed to.

I think it's hard for all of us "kids" because we are really happy for our parents, but we don't really know how to respond to each other yet.  We all come from families where divorce was not on the table, so we weren't emotionally prepared at all for this whole blending-families thing.  Not that anyone is, but the newness of the reality means we are still in a bit of shock.

I think I'm rambling a bit, but an example would be in the small things.  Like recently, when someone told my son that Emeka is his grandpa, internally, I flinched.  Logically, of course he is Declan's grandpa; that makes perfect sense.  It's even an answer to prayer that my son has a grandpa because I never did, and I had thought about it.  But even with thinking it through, I somehow wasn't prepared to hear someone else say that to my son. 

I think I could talk about this all day, but I'll stop for now...

Well, my last blog was about the spiritual christmas eve that I was experiencing.  I am happy to say that I have seen my present; it's a new job!   I will be making more money (which will help support the family while Justin is in school) and I will learn all kinds of new stuff. 

I'm so excited about learning new things.  I get bored so easily and this job is promising to be full of variety. 

I am very curious, however, as to what God is ultimately up to with this job.  I don't think that this will necessarily be field that I work in the rest of my life.  I think God is just tacking more skills onto my resume so that He can prepare my for something else.  He is very sneaky like that (I wish they had an curious smiley to insert here).

The journey continues...

Hello all:

I'm taking down my other Declan site and will just be using Myspance/Xanga.  Hopefully, I'll have it all set-up soon.

Anja