Sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore. It's all just building up so quick and I would give anything to get my old life back. I want things to be normal. I want to have a normal Christmas. . My world was picked up, shaken and thrown around without me even realizing it. It's starting to hit me now...I know...a really delayed reaction...but nothing seemed real before. Now it's becoming more and more real and it scares me...I have to admit. I don't know...I guess I just have to have faith that God will take care of it. It's just so hard...