Today was without a doubt the worst day of my life so far.  My dad has been in the hospital now for..well...over a month.  But this morning my mom recieved a call telling her that his kidneys are shutting down, he has an infection all througout his body and that his temperature was over 101.  They were calling to find out if he went out whether or not she would want them to bring him back.  Remember I said I don't cry?  I believe I made up for a whole year of not crying.  All I did for about 4 hours this morning is cry.  My whole extended family ended up being at the hospital today.  This morning he wasn't coherent.  He could understand what we were saying but he coudln't reply.  Although he wasn't in pain.  It was the most painful thing in the world.  My dad is my best friend in the whole world.  We're apparantly exactly alike.  And we knew how to have a good time...when he wasn't making me do yardwork (c: 

With lots of prayers though, things improved a little bit.  His fever went down and the calcium in his body is going down.  (The calcium was high from the bone cancer...and when calcium is high, it leads people to be confused and disoriented).  So by tonight he was awake and mumbling a few words...He's still having trouble eating because his brain isn't sending him the message that he needs to swallow..but he asked for hot chocolate and he downed it in a good 30 seconds. lol  The doctor says if the antibiotics for the infection are successful, then he can start him on chemo pills and we may be able to buy a little more time. 

My heart is broken though.  I've never been through anything so painful in my life.  I can't imagine my life without him.  It hurts that he won't see me graduate college or that my children will never know their grandfather.  I'm going to miss just being able to come home and talk to him - he'd listen to all sorts of stupid stuff and help me with everything I couldn't figure out (which was a lot!)  I love him so much...please keep praying guys.  (c: