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i hear voices telling me to smile their whispers are screams to my ears and i can hear your laughter as i'm drowned in my thoughts i've run out of places to escape and the pain just doesn't seem to cease it keeps o…
i can still feel your presence as you keep grabbing hold of me. you keep staring through me looking for my heart, watching it as it bleeds and drowns within itself. i remember you watched as i fell so hard, and all you d…
and where has the reality gone? my mind lost inside this emptiness that seems to crawl inside my heart. i can't find my way back to the world i'm in, instead i'm drifting away. stumbling upon my words i can't speak. sing…
I¡¦m standing here again Waiting for you to come and save me You haven¡¦t showed And if you did I don¡¦t know if I would let go And give into your lies Because while waiting here I realized You aren¡¦t the one …
carina: however you urge me to, i won't. because if i do than you will and i can't bear seeing you crying and having blood drip down your wrist. and maybe you are right, i would rather just go now then wait for an eterni…
one year. since the beginning of the pain. and i feel just as bad as when i started this whole blog thing. and i've been depressed one full year bout the same thing, and here it comes back again, hits me so hard. all i c…
there is this tasteless sadness clinging onto my heart, that won't go away or tear me apart. when did this ever hold hostage of me before? i could always escape from the bitterness which lingers around me inside. now it …
struggling to remember what i once was, as i looked inside this mirror showing who i don't recognize. so now i feel so transparent to everyone, as they stare right through me and don't notice me. but still i desperately …
carina: i thought that i would never have anyone to understand what the hell i'm talking about when i start to write. i feel better just knowing that you know what i'm talking about. thanks. i think i'm gonna write you a…
i know everyone is tired of me. i'm sorry.
music: something corporate - konstantine [i don't want you to be there for me. you never were, when i really needed you around.] slowly i'm disappearing, fading into somebody i don't kno. i wish i didn't exist. so i ca…
i can hear your voice repeating inside my thoughts, i can't hide away from you as you linger on inside my head. i don't need you yet i can't let go of all the memories. you told me you'd always be there, so where are you…
i never meant to cut myself...but i couldn't stand it no more.
today i realized something i didn't notice before. linda wasn't here because of the walkathon, she was home doing whatever. i realized i've got no friends. my mom says i have no life, she says to my cousin, "don't copy …
ok let me rephrase that: "life sux like a bitch" one more day of all this weirdness and i'll go insane. eek. so here i am screaming inside trying to keep still contain this pain yet i dunno what i'm so sad bout jus…
ooh maybe life isn't THAT bad.

Sparkling_Starz

- Name: T
- Country: Canada
- State: British Columbia
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- Birthday: 8/22/1990
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- Member Since: 10/17/2002