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thx erik. this blog is dedicated to carina [so u better read it] new years eve as i said i don't think its any special-er than any other day, it might be worse than all the others day. so much reflecting of the past, …
i close my eyes and all i see is the past. somehow i'm unable to process the fact that you left already. maybe that's keeping me from crying too much, i smile as tears flood my eyes. thinking pick me up, pick me up from…
ITS SNOWING. and i dyed my hair! =) i look like a lion.
i admire they're pain. with eyes closed no one can stare me down. everything hurts once in awhile. and we'll all fall down being critisized. we'll fit in but be unaccepted. somehow i can fit in within all the lies that…
x'mas. hum it doesn't feel any special-er. but have a effin' good x'mas everybody =)
Shoutz [darren c.] somehow ur the first on my list, i think its cuz ur the one talking to me rite now =) ehe. i gotta say ur such a great friend to have. thx for being there when no one else was. and being there still …
its so stupid. my friend takes a pair of scissors and cuts herself...or tries. it doesn't bleed just leaves this pink mark. she loox at me expecting something, yet i just look away. i laugh at her stupidity, cutting hers…
still here waiting for eternity it never comes never leaves tears die and wither away hidden within lost words corrupted inside no one knows and i just blanky stare as everybody smiles while i fade away and disappear [F…
i have a headache but i had a purdy good day. went to the mall with linda n went crazy. i even tried on this hot pink shirt with a guitar on it [it wasn't THAT bad] and a skirt too hehe we were having fun. then i had a c…
[i love mr.chexxx]
eh...and another one =) can't hide from your crudeness, trying to rub you out of my eyesight. but your just standing there asking me when i would like to let go. i don't cry and i don't smile. i just stare endlessly at …
i hide within my lies trying to find another way as my soul drowns and dies slowly i suffocate and see you lying by my side we'll both leave behind a world of endless cries [Faint] ahh i scuk plz forgive me.
we are trying to belong together, but we seem to fall apart. can't blend in and don't really know where the fck we are. we hide behind our lies and crave for everybody else's acceptance, and forget about ourselves. like …
another one bites the dust. now i'm just stuck. ehe..sorry hun.
we share the same disease the same urges the same pain and we can't let go of it all though we both know where we are going in the end. so we'll keep suffering hold on to what we have and let go of it all later o…
we were made to judge to live in pain and hold ourselves up we were never meant to love to find happiness yet we are so corrupt we all want to be accepted even if we are we are waiting for it and we're crying fo…

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