Life = good

Hitler = bad

Right face, Wrong time,                                                            She's sweet, but I dont wanna fall in love.

It's pathetic. I'm not it. I'm awesome. What's pathetic? I'm glad u asked. It's the fact that to boost one's reputation u must destroy anothers. It sucks. It causes me pain. Both emotional and physical. But otherwise life is great. It's just wanna those days. So much has gone wrong, but so much went right. It balances out for the better. The duster is dying. My poor baby. I shed tears of anger and regret. I must it. I will be working on it all week. No matter what. I don't have the ability to deal with the dusters passing. It will ruin me as a person. I have faith. Faith alone is all that is needed. And a book from the library. I seem to be egotistical. I start almost all my sentences w/ I. I call it confidence or balls. How can u truly love others if you cannot first love yourself. Think about it. Be more like me. You will be a better person. Make the world a better place. Save a horse ride a cowboy. You know. E. all of the above. My mind is a mysterious place. It scares me. More freedom would be better. Actions speak louder than words. I'm meticulous and soft spoken. Bold and dangerous. Fun and exciting. This feels like a personal ad. SWF looking for nonugly rich guy that can love all 400 lbs of me, must be good kisser and love cats. lol. Thats pretty much every personal add ever summed up. They should call me Pathos. Whatever. Give me all your love. Cuz u know u love me.

So I've decided to be poor and happy.  It's a major turning point.  I've noticed that I prefer to work a forty hour week and get paid rater than go to school for five days plus hw and still get crappy grades.  Vacation does these things to you.  I naturally have a problem with authority.  It runs in the family.  We're just a bunch of dysfunctional, criminalistic misfits, but we do know how to have a good time.  Only God can judge me, and since I don't really believe in anything but what i can see, as long as I believe in myself I have control.  "Je pense donc je suis" the great words of Descartes.  Thats right, this ghetto, punk redneck(depending on which Ryan u know) has some class.  I may not be a cutter, good ol' boy, or OG, but I know how to play on emotions and keep a level head and thats all that matters.

I've wanted to play pingpong all vacation, and since Mike is the only one who is game, I might as well not even worry about it.  That dude plays pingpong on his break in the back. He's a pro.  lol. If anyone reading this wants to know what pingpong is, its a game of skill and luck that cost me only $6 a game. lol.

Currently Listening Hurry Up and Wait By Riddlin' Kids I feel fine see related

Hey I'm back, doesn't that make u feel warm and fuzzy inside?

I have made two vital dicoveries:

1. I'm too pretty for jail.  They'd eat me up.

2. Ryan doesn't do drugs.  Drugs do Ryan.

I've been having an above average day.  Some people may call it being drunk on life.  I made a few observations:

confidence can get you anywhere

realists get places in life faster than others

crazy is my favorite emotion

those that really love you only pretend to ignore you

the only people that hate me hate themselves

I'm slightly egocentric for a shy guy

True friends are hard to notice but easy to find

the least likely people usually will have your back

Being attractive doen't make you nice, but being nice makes you attractive

school was full of soul crushing mediocrity that turned you into the wonderful person you are

Everyone has a bright and dark spot, you just have to care to find it

Punk rock rules, but so does every other genre of music

I love that the people that are around me will put up with my passion for lunacy

The best way to achieve anything is to hold your breath and throw yourself into it

Kindra is the prettiest girl I've ever met

That's about it. Hope you all enjoy the break.  I'll post again soon if I have another evokation of emotions, and if i get any responses.