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Birthday: 3/6/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: friends, guys, fashion, movies, chad michael murray, gilmore girls, one tree hill, smallville, singing, dancing, helping others, comedy, romance
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
7/2/2003
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ever have one of those moments where you feel like u just need to get something
out? i seem to be having a lot of those lately...
Treat others the way you want to be treated.
its the golden rule...but im starting to realize that no one truely cares about how i want to be treated.
i trust others and expect their trust in return.
i respect the beliefs of others, expecting them to respect mine.
i am always there for my friends, and want them to always be there for me
i dont exclude people because i dont want to be excluded
i love people because i want to be loved
but you know what?
my friends constantly hide stuff from me
they don't seriously respect my opinion on topics ranging from drinking to religion to restaurants.
honestly, 90% of the time, i feel like im being used...for pool, food, or tutoring
because when i need to talk, its hard to find a person who will honestly care enough to listen
when i make plans (such as disneyland), i dont exclude anyone...but
they never work out, because most of the time everyone has already made
plans that dont include me.
so you want to know why i feel the need to be loved? maybe its because
ive already given so much of myself away...what you see is what you
get...i have given away all i have to offer, but now i wish i hadnt,
because it sucks not to get anything in return. so all i can do is hope
that "love is like oxygen...love is a many splendored thing, love lifts
us up where we belong, all you need is love" because i need my life
back, i am tired of this meaningless existence in which i am merely a
pawn to be controlled by destiny, religion, education, family, and
friends.
i could say so much more, but what's the use, no one really cares enough anyway. | | |
| ok.. im going to try something in attempt to increase our verbal scores on the SAT!
we'll see how it works out...
so let's play SAT Rhymation!
Rules: i will describe four rhyming words using descriptions/definitions...it's your job to figure out which words im describing. at this rate we can learn at least 4 words a day!
1.The act of offering something, such as worship or thanks,
especially to a deity.
2.Sustained and severely abusive language.
3.A tinkling sound, as of a bell or bells.
4.Conduct or language inciting resistance to or rebellion
against lawful authority. | | |
| happy new years people! i had so much fun last night. allie, tiffany,ken, alex, mark, shayan, patrick, and kristie all came over. ashley and drew stopped by to say hi. and jenn and samson came after i was already starting to fall asleep on the couch. we had such a good time. it just goes to show you that you can have fun at a party without liqour or sex. my friends rock.
on another note. ive decided upon my new years resolution. for the past 5 years i have had two: dont fight with siblings and get a boyfriend. well 5 years later, neither have worked no matter how hard i try, so these are my new new years resoluutions: stop scott and allie from fighting and stop being hung up over guys. i know that if the right guy for me if out there i will find him eventually, so now i just have to believe it and deal with life's cards as they are dealt to me. and i just came up with a new one. im not going to let what other people do get to me . so as long as its not my body nor my life that they are destroying, they can smoke pot or whatever. someday they'll know what i know, but not from me, because ive told them to many times without them taking the consequences to heart, so im done. i still feel strongly about my values however. so when u come to my house u will still be expected to respect them.
so happy new years everyone. i truely love you all.
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| <b>arizona!!!</b>
wow...
this has been an awesome trip... and surprisingly, very relaxing.
while the bat mitzvah and seeing my family was awesome, it was very stressful, so after everyone left scottsdale (except for us) i was finally able to relax!
on monday my mom sis and i went to Last Chance. think nordstroms last chance sale at a year round store (cuz thats exactly whut it is). i got lots of cute stuff and found out that i wear a size 6 dress even though i have a size two waist due to annoying blobs of fat that guys dont even notice (otherwise known as boobs). dont u just love the parenthetical commentary? for more info about this shopping trip (cuz u prolly dont care) go look at my cuz's lj http://www.livejournal.com/users/thats__mine/ . then after driving around for a half hour trying to figure out where to eat we went to fuddruckers! it was my first time going and i really liked my burger even though i burnt my toungue cuz i ate it too quickly. we got back to the hotel and i was exhausted and went to bed really really early, but was woken up by taylor prank calling me (even though ashley says he said it wasnt him, i know it was) after much talking on the phone i finally went to bed.
on tuesday...o ya...i woke up and went downstairs for breakfast and guess who i saw?!?!? Katie Kitchen!!!!! in Scottsdale! so we ate together and i amazed her with my eating skills (hah...for all u people who think i dont eat, katie has seen it with her own two eyes!) she had cantelope, i had french toast, pancakes, cereal, potatoes, a bagel, an english muffin, fruit, milk, and french vanilla tea! Then we packed up and headed out for sedona! it's so pretty here. the red rock is amazing...im so bringing some back for mr walker.
today we took a road trip to THE GRAND CANYON! it was breathtaking! if u havent gone, i totally recommend it. i wish i could say more about it cuz it was so awesome but im just speechless...who wouldve thought, amanda speechless?
we got back to the hotel and i went to the gym which was very relaxing cuz i got my anger out...it was kinda funny, i was able to get myself to run faster by yelling at all the guys that have driven me crazy in my head. ya im weird like that... then i took a nice, relaxing bath. and now im typing this... so far its taken 20 minutes.. im such a slow typist!
theres so muchmore that i dont wanna forget but dont really know where to put it without adding a whole bunch of more info so ill just put it here:
meeting alex at the BIG house
going to Montezuma's Castle and trying to get rocks stuck in our shoes
going to the Grand Canyon and trying to get rocks stuk in our shoes
wondering about sand
testing glasses with contacts
checking out all of the hott az guys with katie
going SHOPPING
LIVE JEWISH
balloon animals
the alz
my big fat greek restaurant
Dodgeball
Mr. brightside- "are they saying viagra?"
showing homecoming pictures to family and katie "i love how you're in the middle of the asian posse"
showing off my penguin socks "i got you penguins cuz they're the closest to pandas!"
two free chicken platters for amanda
yeah, u prolly dont care, but if u want me to elaborate on any of those just ask ;)
love you all!
Mandy
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| This has been a great year for me. Since January I have learned a great deal about myself and others with the aid of my friends and family, even if they weren’t aware of it till now...
My mom has been trying to get this point across for years and I think I’m finally starting to see the point behind it: it’s the thought that counts
We’ve all heard it, but growing up in a materialistic society, I for one take things for granted far too often. My mom has decided to give me an allowance to help me see that money doesn’t grow on trees. And you know what, it worked. I spend money without really thinking about it. I helped people go to New Orleans and helped a family living on a much smaller income than mine, and those were choices I decided to make and am happy with. And while bowling is tons of fun, it’s just as fun to play mafia, and a lot cheaper too. And since I’m trying to save money for my Europe trip this summer so I can bring y’all back something, I hope u can understand why I’m not really spending money on presents.
So this year, instead of a cute present that you will probably never use, I’m going to share the knowledge I’ve acquired this year that could last a lifetime.
To Sonny- First, I’d like to thank you for being born (or perhaps I should thank your parents) because without you, life is just incomplete. You inspire me. You make me strong. You make me laugh. You make me cry. You make me feel loved. You are the strongest person I have ever met, you are my hero. Don’t ever give up. I will be here for you like you are always there for me. You have taught me so much; I don’t even know where to begin. You have taught me that it’s okay to do stupid things. You have taught me how to get to where I need to go, especially when Charles gets angry because we don’t know how to spell sportmart. You even reunited me with the missing half of the Fallbrook mall. I both literally and figuratively would be lost without you.
To Alex- this could take a while…. You have shown me how awesome it is to have a guy friend living close by. You taught me math. You taught me patience. You taught me the importance of looking beneath the surface. You taught me about guys. You introduced me to a world of music outside the addicting realm of mtv. You showed me that there is more to live than watching others living it on tv. You showed me that it’s okay to make mistakes. We have mastered the ability to have really long phone conversations with no real point to them. You have introduced me to the wonderful world of potstickers. You have taught me the importance of simply listening. Thank you for making me feel accepted, loved, and perfectly imperfect.
To Ashley- you taught me the importance of locking the door while changing. You showed me how to be comfortable with who I am. You taught me that if you’re about to go to Hawaii you should fix whatever needs fixing. You have shown me the importance of just hanging out and joking around. You have taught me to forgive. Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii will alwaaaaays loooooooooooooooooooove yooooooooooooooooooooooooooou
To Rachel- you have taught me honesty and courage. You have taught me not to judge people based on how they look or what they wear. You are one of the nicest people I have ever met. You deserve to be truly happy. I know you will accomplish anything you set your mind to.
To Jenn- you have introduced me to the very confusing world of guys. You have taught me the importance of being close to my mom. We taught each other how to dance. You amaze me in everything you do. Thank you for always being there when I needed you.
To Jon- you taught me the importance of leaving your house once in a while. You taught me how keep on task. You taught me how to bs my hw. Thank you for always making me feel welcome.
To Samson- you have shown me that life is about carpe diem. I now know that it’s ok to take a risk every once in a while. You have taught me not to be materialistic. You have taught me to be unselfish. Thank you for teaching me how to be brave.
To ken- you have taught me not to procrastinate. You showed me how to move on. You showed me that not all guys are jerks. Thank you for always bringing a smile to my face.
To Nancy- you taught me how to RAVE. You taught me that people vary in many ways. Thank you for showing me how to accept the differences in people
To Angela- you taught me math and now chem. You make me laugh. You show me that it’s ok to be silly. You show me that the grade doesn’t matter as long as you try your hardest. Thank you for showing me how to be cool!
Now I must go study for chem….I can’t believe that took an hour and a half to write. If anyone else wants their present, leave a comment!
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