I know that I want you in the rest of my life somehow.
It's nights like this one, and last night, that are both wonderful and horrible at the same time. I miss you... even though I just saw you earlier today. I look at the pull out bed and you're not there. I miss laying and laughing and playing countless games of Mario Party.
And I don't know what to do with myself when you're not around anymore.
I have been lying in bed for about an hour now, missing you, running different ideas of things to do to suprize you through my head.
You're amazing.
And you're always there, you're always willing.
I feel when I'm with you, and I know then that I'm not crazy, I'm not worthless, I'm not wrong. You'd shown me how to love myself, and that is more valuable than anything else you could ever hope to give me.
I'm truely terrified of August but I know that I could never let go.
I'll never make it if you're not rooting for me. And I promise, I'll try and make it home whenever I can.
Anyway, I guess this is just a big long reminder that I think the world of you, I'll always be there for you, I appreciate everything you've done for me, I love you, and you have me as long as you'll keep me.
I'm in.
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