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Friday, May 23, 2008

  • What Myself Said to Me

    Breathe.
    Breathe in.
    Breathe out.
    And write.

    Just trust your voice to say what needs to be said.
    Trust your pen to write what needs to be written.

    You have amazing in you.
    You have potential and beauty and talent and purpose.

    Breathe.
    And focus.
    And let go.
    And write.
    Trust yourself.
    Just do it.


    Because no one else can write your words --- nobody will spill your heart.
    If you don't write --- those words will die in you.
    And the world will mourn the loss of what it never knew.

    You don't have time to waste.

    Get to it.
    Lay it out.
    Ask the questions.
    Make the choices.
    Plan and commit.
    Follow your pen.

    Write!

Monday, May 19, 2008

  • Yellow Line

    Another treasure box post. This time, the treasure comes from the box of a friend.

    The yellow line stretches
    to the horizon and beyond
    like so much ribbon.

    I gaze at it long and hard
    until it blurs in the distance
    and something in me tightens
    like a guitar string
    waiting to be struck.

    Shimmering off of
    the road ahead,
    the heat seems to vibrate
    in time with the starting
    of my reluctant engine.

    I let it idle
    for a moment or two.

    A breeze finds my
    open window and lifts
    the damp hair from
    the back of my neck.

    I tug on the gear shift,
    and smile as the crunch
    of gravel echoes
    in my head.

    Pulling onto the
    deserted black top,
    I feel my heart race
    as that yellow line
    stretches out in front of me,
    measuring the distance
    between here and the
    hazy edge of the world.

    I’m not sure
    what’s out there,
    but I know
    I have to chase it.

    I have to get closer
    to something I can’t find
    back there parked
    on the side of this
    long black road.

    TLS, 2008

  • Stopping Time

    As I continue to sift through my treasure box, I hope to write about some of the things hidden there. The following is an example:

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    What is it about a stopped pocket watch, a wristwatch with a dead battery, or a grandfather clock in a dark hallway, covered in inch-thick dust?

    I have an affinity for time-pieces, a room in my house where the walls are covered by bookshelves and clocks—pendulums swinging, soft ticking echoing off of the ceiling and sliding down the walls to the hardwood floor. I like that time is measured, meted out…that if I’m waiting for something to happen, there is a moment, when it will, and when the preceding moments are counted down, that split-second of realization will arrive. That thought helps me be a bit more patient, to hope knowing the moment isn’t always somewhere out there in the future…it must get closer, it must finally arrive. So, the whole working, ticking, functioning timepieces thing makes sense to me.

    Then there are the broken watches, the dead battery timepieces in my treasure box. What do they represent? I think maybe they are mementos of history. Moments past, marking a lifetime, mine, or someone else’s, when something significant happened. Those moments when everything changed. Or when time was frozen, as by a photograph. I think a wristwatch that is forever stopped at 1:37 may be a reminder of the very moment when someone said “I love you”, or the devastating news was delivered to the one whose heart would be forever broken. There’s significance in these frozen hour and minute hands, even that second hand that is normally in perpetual motion, is beautiful stopped on that tiny second line between the nine and the ten on that tarnished silver wrist watch.

    I am, I guess, a lover of minutes. All of them. They are the things that make up a life, a relationship, a memory. I guess the moments past are as important to me, as the ones yet to come…those seconds of “appointed time” that I am waiting to see come to pass. I am a child of time, and cannot imagine timelessness. I need these markers, to tell me where I’ve been, and where I’m going.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

  • Fireflies in a Velvet Sky

    The wind sighs through the leaves on the tree overhead, as twilight descends upon us. The sky turns to velvet, with a single, diamond-like star, sewn into its fabric. I long to reach out and run my fingers over the textured folds---in varying shades of blue and black. I stand at the corner of the house, and gaze down an overgrown path. Tractor wheels have recently flattened the green, spring grasses into two long lines that disappear in the distance. The trees reach toward each other overhead and draw my eyes toward what I know to be a grove of cedars just beyond the curve and out of sight.

    But in my imagination, this road could lead to any number of magical places. In the distance, fireflies dance just beyond the lights of the truck behind me, and I know that if I followed them, I could escape this world and enter a new one just inside the tree line. Overhead, the moon glimmers, and I can hear the call of a whippoorwill and the sound of crickets.
    Behind me are the voices of loved ones sharing conversation with each other, and a crackling fire in a barrel-shaped pit. The smell of hamburgers lingers in the air, but beyond that is the wet scent of early evening.

    I am comfortable here, loved ones within sight, within hearing range – but my face, my body is turned toward that imaginary place at the end of this lane. I long to go there---not so much physically---but in my mind. I long to write of where that road might lead, and what it would be like to step into a world where fireflies are my friends---where they lead me on a treasure hunt for beauty that can take your breath---to a place where trees and frogs and water speak in voices I can understand, and each welcome me back from a long journey, to a place as familiar as the voices of those family members sitting in the twilight around the fire.

    I take a step in that direction, close my eyes, and I am gone…

Saturday, May 03, 2008

  • My Treasure Box

    I’m thinking of a list of things, items that inspire me and make me smile. Little things, keepsakes, mementos, what most people would label junk, and probably sell in a garage sale, or toss in the trash bin. If I had a treasure box, the kind you find hidden under the bed of a ten-year-old child, here are a few of the things it would contain:

    fireflies
    skeleton keys
    thunderstorms
    tiny silver spoons
    scraps of red ribbon
    a handful of thimbles
    coins from other countries
    leftover ends of used candles
    a set of my father’s cuff links
    phrases, quotes, and peculiar words
    pocket sized, aged, cloth covered books
    faded photos of strangers and strange places
    a set of my Mimi’s salt and pepper shakers
    jars of buttons in every shape and color
    stopped wrist or pocket watches
    one of my grandfather’s pipes
    notebooks half full of poetry
    smooth multi-colored stones
    the sounds that frogs make
    postmarked stamps
    an old library card
    a broken teacup
    matchbooks

    Funny thing is, these treasures make their way into my stories. They appear over and again, and make me smile. These pages are my treasure box, and if you read them, it’s the same as sitting on the floor of my childhood bedroom and exploring the depths of that treasure box.

    What’s in your box? What pieces of ephemera find their way into your stories, just because you love them, and want others to hold them in their hands, gaze at them, and remember, too?

TaunaLen

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