"It's taken me almost a decade to acknowledge your existence. I've spent years ducking you, avoiding people who knew you, praying I wouldn't run into anyone ho wanted to talk about you. I didn't want you to make me …
There is so much going on inside my head right now. Just constant talking and arguing, fighting and crying.
I can't make myself stop crying. I cry myself to sleep, I cry when I wake up. I cry when I think about…
To act like everything is ok would be a lie. To act like I'm fine would be acting. To say that I'm going to be just fine...that's just me saying. Because right now, I don't know.
I sit here, and I cry, and I…
I had a fun day yesterday.
I got up early and cleaned my house a little bit, did some laundry, etc. Then, around 1:00, I drove over to Bridgett's place. We went to the mall, so I would know how to get there if …
It's really hard to know what to write when there is literally not a single thing new. Every single day is just a variation on the same thing for me.
However, I did get new pointe shoes yesteray. I'm really ha…
Holy crap! It's midnight! Where did the night go?!
I suppose having a 3 hour nap would have something to do with it. I got some homework done, went grocery shopping, and now I'm feeling pretty good. Unfortunately…
Things feel so weird right now. On the one hand, I'm having a good time, and I like everyone that I work with, I'm so happy that I get to dance at a great studio, and I like my apartment.
On the other, I feel alone,…
I can't even begin to tell you how mad I am. I don't bring it up because I'm too angry to get into it, and I would be too angry to let it go.
To make matters worse, I am insanely jealous right now. And I do actu…
Wow. I just had a super horrible dream about Justin.
What's even worse is that I have a dream like this when he's not around to make me feel better about it. Stupid dreams.
Off to shower before Orientat…
Sunday. This is a lonely, boring day.
I went to The Red Shoe to try to get some pointe shoes. Everything in this city is closed on Sunday. How boring. And lonely.
Molly is driving me crazy, have I said …
I'm going to go ahead and write a little more here. I think it will help to open up a little.
I am seriously lonely right now. I have been home alone all night, and all I can think about is how much I want so…
I seriously believe that Narnia is the best movie ever.
There is nothing that I don't like about it. I've seen it twice, so it wasn't a fluke. I can't believe how amazing it is. It's a keeper!
I went to a o…
It is such a blessing to have half a day off!
Not that I got a ton of shit done or anything, but it was just really nice to sit around the house and relax. I had a nap, I worked on my portfolio project, and I wat…
Nothing super cool to talk about today. Just a regular day. I worked at Pinnacle all morning, and got to do some awesome scans. I might see if I can't get some of the pictures we took on CD and bring them to post t…
I was back at Pinnacle today.
I missed it. I missed being there, with everyone. They're all so nice, and it's such a nice environment. So different from the hospital environment. Not that I dislike the hospit…
First ballet class yesterday.
OK, so not my first. But the first one in Arkansas. Let me tell you...French with an Arkansas accent sounds really, really funny.
I had a great class. My teacher seems really st…
I'm in my new apartment!
I can't believe how much I like it. It's small, but cute, and well decorated.
I can't say that for real, because I don't have anything on the walls, and a lot of the stuff is just o…
Ooh Ooh Ooh! Boy am I excited now!
I'm going to be hired at the OB clinic that I work at for 10 hours a week. I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but on top of my 40 clinical hours, I'm sure it will fill up my…
I'm gonna mess around with fonts until I find one that I really like. This is a little blah.
Here we go!
I can't believe I've been here for 5 days already. I guess now I know how it could possibly go by "Faster…
So. I wrote a nice long post about my first day at the clinic yesterday.
Then I was deleted by my poor internet connection.
So, I'll write about yesterday AND today when I get home. Good luck with that!
So, it's been a while.
I had an amazing Christmas, and now I'm in Arkansas. What a fast few days.
I can't believe Kiera. She is so amazing, it brings tears to my eyes. She's beautiful, and happy, and smart,…
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