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okay. today is my final day at Heartland until this upcoming fall. All I have to do is turn in my english portfolio, and have a critiqing and food party in my ceramics class. tough stuff, I tell ya. ::wink::

As for the community thing I'm setting up, I may be able to get four churches involved in helping this little fundraiser. That would be so awesome! I talked with Dennis earlier today and he said he was proud of me for setting this up. I want to help in any way I can, and it seems right now this is a HUGE thing God has let me take responsibility and handle with. If this goes well, God can use me for even bigger responsibilities. you know what? I want everyone to join in on this, and let's witness a miracle.

-Dave

The past..maybe, three? ceramics classes I was suppose to go to, I skipped it. Basically, because I didn't have to go. I was so caught up on everything that I didn't have to be there. I was a little disappointed yesterday, too. My teacher forgot to fire my teapot, so I couldn't glaze it. Now I have to glaze it on the day of my presentation. By the way, my presentation is on a contemporary ceramics artist named Richard Notkin. His work is quite strange, but very interesting. Check him out if you can. and now I go to math class to study for the upcoming final, and then read up on My Purpose Driven Life for my bible class tonight. Its my third time going through this book, and almost every time I find new things to ponder and put into consideration.

And one more thing. I will be talking with my church about setting up a community night at Monical's to help out my Sunday college group. Basically, people come to Monical's to eat, and bring with them a flyer I will be handing out. A percentage of that money they spend on food and having a good family time, goes straight into funding for "the old youth group" ( or OYG). Those funds go into helping with volunteer work such as getting materials we may need to help out with landscaping or what-not. I'm not sure on a set date right now, but I'm leaning towards June 28th, on Monday.

okay I go buh-bye now. have fun and God Bless.

-Dave

long....past days....yeah....
Let's see, where to start...
Okay. My grandma came up from Nevada for a week. It was cool to see her again. I got new flip phone. Suprisingly, I unexpectedly named it. My new phone's name is Gloria. (the name just popped in my head and I was like, "no, you did not just name your phone".
I don't know if I mentioned this yet, but I got a new futon to replace my bed. Its comfy and I can turn it into a chair and watch tv on my couch/bed now withought laying down. score...
Special, Hollywood and Aliz came down for the weekend. that was pretty cool.
Saturday I went with the three mentioned people to see Tiff in Les' Miserables. I must say it was good. I may not have grasped the consept of absolutely everything, but I still liked it.
yesterday Special went to church while Aliz and Hollywood slept in. That usually happens when they come down here. lol. After church, we all went to Dan's for hotdogs and stuff, and played catch with the football and frisbee, then played on the playground. After frisbee and stuff, I had to take Special back to Aliz' house so they could head back to Ollie. Very short stay, but a good one none the less.
My mom and nanny went to Metropolis the last couple days. They came back yesterday with a Superman hat for my brother and a Superman shot glass for me. I used to collect shot glasses but never really used any of them. Special's jelous. lol. My mom said Metropolis had a Superman museum (go figure) but didn't go in it. drat.

And now onto Fuel. It was really good. I can't explain it really, but I can say this. For a long time now I have been away from God. I could still talk to people about Him, but not much of it, and I didn't quite feel Him working through me. All the people around me who did have God at the time, I got jealous of. I hated the fact that they were bragging about who they helped and what they did like they were taking the credit for everything. Even when I try to help someone, I don't take any credit for it. I may be stupid, or I may be too humble. Same thing? I don't know.
Anyways, yesterday I came back. It was hard to do so. It always is. Even when I know in my mind and heart that God will ALWAYS take you back, it's still difficult. So I was there praying. I was sitting down praying while everyone was up and singing. I shed some tears for having God forgive me for everything. Then I stood up and sang my heart out. It felt soooo good. Like no one was there, just you, God, and the worship that followed.
I prayed for a few things, but one that came to mind was a girlfriend. One who meets all my needs and one in who all her needs would be met from me. There's something wrong though. Everywhere I look, everwhere I turn, I see girls who look at me as though I was completely hideous. Sure they smile and may say hi and everything, but that little glimpse of disgust as they quickly look away, like I didn't just see them quickly change faces. It hurts. It makes me want to hate those who do that. It makes me want to give up all hope that I would ever find someone. For a while now it has been that case. Like I don't want to deal with anyone because I don't have the slim facial features that they so desire.

Okay, this is my first entry in here. spiffy. I have another "blog" thingy. Its yin_yang_4 in livejournal.com. I'm pretty sure I'll be posting more in there. ohh well. I'll try to keep posting in here as well, just not as much.

-Dave