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Name: APRiL
Gender: Female
Interests: she's a little scared to get close to
anyone cause everyone that said,
"i'll always be here for you" left.
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10/23/2005
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Anyway, no drug, not even alcohol, causes
the fundamental ills of society. If we're
looking for the source of our troubles, we
shouldn't test people for drugs, we should
test them for stupidity, ignorance,
greed and love of power.
+ + P.J. O'Rourke
I want to be the girl that changed everything. The girl that made a difference. The girl that gave you a story to tell.
And it became so clear so suddenly.
Darling, you're allergic to honesty.
And I’d be lying if i told you I never knew it
was coming. But I’m tired of lying and I’m sick
of trying. We both know it wasn't worth it, I
need to hear it, and you need to say it.
"Loss is a part of life, you can't really care for someone until you realize that one day they may be gone, and when they do go we feel as everything goes with them, and we feel like we'll never really care about anything again, but we do and we discover that, that loss was a gift that helps us appreciate all of the things that we do still have."
it's stunning to know i've survived
but i don't know what i'm fighting for anymore
Everybody screws up. It's what
you do with the screw ups, it's how
you handle the experience. That's
what you should judge yourself by.
You may not end up where you thought you'd be,
but you always end up where you're meant to be
My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.
I want someone who won't care
that I hate wearing shoes
that I'm incapable of sitting still
&& I refuse to be ladylike.
Someone who realizes
that half the decisions I make
are usually the ones I regret.
&& I have the right to overreact.
I want someone
who know how completely insane I am
&& he wouldn't want me any other way.
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| "I don't know what's wrong with me.
It's like all I can do is keep writing this gibberish to keep from breaking apart."
-- The Perks of being a Wallflower.
i liked it when my fingers were entangled in yours
& my head was on your chest listening to your heartbeat
it made me feel safe like at that moment, nothing bad could touch me
"All one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets."
--Arthur Miller
Because you're the storm that
I’ve been needing and
all this peace has been deceiving.
I like the sweet life and the silence,
but it's the storm that I believe in.
There are two ways to slide easily through life:
to believe everything or to doubt everything;
both ways save us from thinking.
- Alfred Korzybski
in fairytales, when the mask came off,
the handsome prince still loved the girl, no matter what-
and that alone would turn her into a princess.
there are two kinds of people in your life: the ones that are
going to pick you up, and the ones that are going to push you
down, but in the end, you'll thank them both.
I only have two words for you. I'm done. After
everything I've done for you, every chance that I gave
you, and yet you still broke my heart. .everytime.
But it's over now. I finally realized that I don't deserve
this and honestly, you don't deserve me.
I've been doing fine without you, really.
Up until the nights got cold
Everybody's here except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold
"It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right pass someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them
Don't get it twisted;
I'm not apologizing for any of it.
if i could do it all over again
i would do it again.
my past makes me who i am.
right or wrong;;good or bad.
its just who we were.
I got a bottle of pills to give me my thrills.
she’s strong, because she knows what it’s like to be weak.
she keeps a guard, because she knows what it’s like to cry herself to sleep.
nobody knew that you sent me texts at night
saying "good night, i love you" or in the morning saying
"good morning, beautiful. did you sleep well?"
nobody understood why i fell for you,
all they saw was the result ; a broken heart.
people ask me if i believe in forever and i cant
help but sit back &+ laugh because the
way my life's going, i dont even believe in
t o m m o r r o w.
There's a certain kind of pain that can numb you.
There's a type of freedom that can tie you down.
Sometimes the unexplained can define you, and sometimes
the silence is the only sound.
In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back.
As we are here we may as well stay and look on.
That is all we are, lookers on. Nobody really wants us.
So let us watch and say jaggy things, in the hope that some of them will hurt.
- Peter Pan
So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!
After a while, you just can't cry anymore.
You just have to believe that what happens is what's supposed to happen,
and well, you can't change that even if you tried.
So just dry the tears and hope that tomorrow will be a better day
sometimes you just need someone. someone to make
you smile when you're sad, someone to tell you you're
beautiful, someone to look foward to seeing you every-
day, someone to call you every night, someone to say
i love you and mean it. sometimes you just need someone.
And your smile says you've got it together but your eyes are telling me it's not true.
In a relationship I only want 3 things;
eyes that won't cry, lips that won't lie
and love that won't die
she's one of those girls who appear sweet and uncomplicated at first glance. She has that classic girl next door innocence and charm, but once you get to know her, she has a really dark, mysterious side. Even though you realize she could be deceptive and distant, your curiosity gets the best of you, and you're drawn to her. You can get so caught up in her allure that you are blind to her real motivations. I've written songs about this girl before-- and sometimes you can't help but be attracted to danger. But when you play with fire, you will get burned.
you wonder why i dont talk to you anymore,
&& please believe me when i say its not that
i dont want to, its just that [everything] i want
to say , i cant say to you anymore.
I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And
maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we
don't have the power to choose where we come from, we
can still choose where we go from there.
- The perks of Being a Wallflower
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone
It’s best we don't even talk at all, don't call me even if I should cross your mind. It's hard enough; I don't need to hear your voice on my messages. Let’s just call it quits, it’s probably better. So if I'm not returning your calls. it’s 'cause I'm not coming back, I'm closing the door. I used to be trippin’ over missin' you, but I'm not any more.
There are things in this world, that I don't understand.
Like: Love, war, gravity, or the lay of the land.
But all of these remain mysteries,
but one thing is for sure, you are worth living for.
you can find reasons to blame
others, but you can find even more
reasons to blame yourself.
you feel bad? you feel sad? i'm sorry, hell no fuck that!
if you're going to spend the
rest of your life with someone,
it might as well be
your best friend
There's a piece of you that's here with me,
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by,
I can make believe that you're here tonight,
See when you're mad, you don't miss people. So if you stay mad, it's like you never knew them at all. That way you don't feel sucky about them leaving you.
- Uptown Girls
Sometimes they take people & they don`t say why.
Sometimes people leave & they never get to say goodbye.
Sometimes there are no second chances
to say I love you. Sometimes there are no next times.
Sometimes you lose someone & you feel like your heart
has followed them to Heaven.
Sometimes there is just nothing you can do
to make the tears stop
You never get over it, but you get
to where it doesn't bother you so much.
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| Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
i'd rather live my life to the fullest then to conduct myselfin a certain way to gain approval from others.i have no regrets ++ especially ;no apologies "This girl I know... she's been through hell. I mean she's strong, but she's not unbreakable. Not by a long shot. The truth is, I really don't think it'd take much to completely and totally destroy her. She's brave, and rather coldhearted. She acts like nothing gets to her, but if you're one of the lucky ones she lets in, you'd see that a lot of it gets to her. People call her a bitch because... well... she has a tendency to be one. But it's not really true. She acts like that because if she doesn't, somebody might get close enough to realize that she is in fact one of the nicest people... ever. She'd go out of her way to make someone else happy, when it took her every fiber of her being just to get out of bed that morning. She's really strong, she is. But she's really fragile too. It took her a hell of a lot to get up, but she did it In order to get over your past ...
... you have to make a new beginning. ARMED WiTH AN ATTiTUDE THAT SHE KN0WS H0W T0 USE, SHE'S G0NNA GET THERE ANYWAY SHE CAN. N0W SHE KN0WS WHAT SHE WANTS, N0 0NE iS G0NNA ST0P HER, N0THiNG'S EVER G0NNA H0lD HER D0WN, F0R All THE D0UBTERS, N0N BEliEVERS, THE CYNiCAl THAT 0NCE WERE DREAMERS 0NE 0F THESE DAYS Y0U'll KN0W Y0U WERE WR0NG <3 &&. i'm still deciding if
meeting you was a good thing.. I think I'm finally getting used to
The sucky days caused by you,
The fake smiles & "good times"
The glances over that now
Mean absolutely nothing,
How whenever I get that
"1 New Text Message",
I'm always hoping that it's you,
The plans that never really happen.
I think I'm finally getting used
To liking you & all that comes with it. There are two things in this life that makes me cry.
The first is death, because it's a lost life;
the second is love, because it never wanted me. I've never been in love, so I guess I don't know the happiness of love. I've never been nor am I now. I'm kind of afraid to step that deep into something, because I'm just tired of giving everything I've got. But it's hard, when you know that you could be giving more, but you're just giving what you want to give. Not because you're receiving less, but just because, just simply because, you're afraid to admit to yourself that you would give that person your whole world. And you're just afraid that your whole world or your everything just might not be enough. You just don't want to end up empty handed & admit to yourself that you wanted to give them everything. He has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for and the cutest smile that takes your breath away. He has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks and whenever you look into his eyes it's so hard to turn away She could feel him wrapping his arms around her
and giving her one of the hugs she missed so much. You wonder why I’m so cold
You could’ve been more involved but no.
I'm not the girl that you knew before
I can't believe you didn't know I'm grown now
She’s moved on & I feel sorry for you because she
thought you were the most amazing boy ever. If she
could have any guy in the world, she would have picked
you above all the others. She thought you were different,
she was wrong. You’re just another guy to her now. Always tell someone how you feel.
Mean what you say & say what you mean
even when it’s hard because opportunities
are lost in the blink of an eye,
but regrets can last a lifetime. But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight and I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight.
For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try to get better and overcome each moment in my own way.
I think the hardest part about this situation is that neither of us know what's going on. Neither of us knows what each other is thinking & we're both trying to make decisions based on information we don't know.
You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's the actions, not words, that matter. You didn't intentionally break my heart. You
even said you were sorry. But I cried anyway.
I know the truth that you're to scared to admit.
You're with her, but when you're with me, you
can't remember her name.
I want to trace your scars with
my fingertips, want to follow it's
fracturing line. I think you should
know how beautiful and brave you
already are.
Alice: I simply must get through!
Doorknob: Sorry, you’re much too big, simply impassible.
Alice: You mean impossible?
Doorknob: No, impassible. Nothing’s impossible.
- Alice In Wonderland.there's nothing i wouldn't do to hear ur voice again I've learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel
"if we threw our problems in a pile and saw
everyone elses, we'd grab ours back."
For one split second she almost turned around, but that would be like pouring raindrops back into a cloud. So, she took another step and said, "I see the way out, and I'm gonna take it." He misses you? Good, he should. You're sexy, pretty, fun, outgoing, and fun to be around. Guys that haven't met you yet, miss you. But don't get back together with him, because somewhere out there is a guy searching really hard for you. He's the one that deserves someone amazing like you. Let him have it and not the jerk that left you. He says he's jealous of the moon, because you look at it. He's jealous of the sun, because it warms you. He says, "I feel you, even when I'm not feeling you. I talk to you when I'm not talking to you. I love you, even when I'm not loving you." I'd like to think the best of me
is still hiding up my sleeve.one has ever gotten to me like you. I've never found
anyone who makes me laugh like you. You're the one
person I can honestly see myself happy with. The
definition of love to me is you. "I know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing.
Through every dark night, theres a bright day after that.
So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep ya head up.... and handle it."-tupac++ Cut it out. Don't start with your pathetic excuses.
Lies come out of your mouth like breath. And I'm
starting to realize that'll never change. You'll
never change. You can't find the truth, so
you pick the lie you like best. The guilt in your voice leaves me no room for words. If your looking for the truth, you have to Chances are I'll never get a moment like this again,
So here's everything I ever wanted to tell you. No
shut up. Most people I know fill their days
with meaningless bull shit, small talk, and
trivial diversions just to keep the noise
in the their own heads down. that's all drugs and alcohol do, they
cut off your emotions in the end. It's amazing how it can take a lifetime
for you to get over him, but he can always
get over you after a few days. Like nothing
ever happened. But it all happened; the
first kiss, the long nights, the stupid fights Fate is like a strange unpopular restaurant filled
with odd waiters who bring you things you never
ask for and don't alway like
-Lemony Snicket I wish we'd never met. I'm tired of being bored.
I'm through with the headaches. Hiding my hands
that tremble like earthquakes. Under the table,
under the daytime sky. GoodBye.
sleep is overrated. We stay awake
and cry. If this is love, than kill
me now. And save me from my life.
I wrote a goodbye not in lipstick on your arm.
When you passed out, I couldn't bring myself
to call, except to call it quits.
And you'll hear a break of laughter as she smiles, an outburst of noise. The perfection is there if you crawl underneath the first layer of mistakes and insecurities. And there you'll see that person worth listening to, the one that most people try to find in themselves. The brutal truth is you just gotta wake up and look around. We are not in 3rd grade anymore and your heros, your angels--whatever you want to call them--well, they can't save you for much longer. | | |
| Speak when you're pissed.
It'll be the best speech, You'll ever regret i've got some problems
but we've got ten dollars
that's enough to get us wasted
before the night is over
these past 5 days i've been
completely sober, but tonight
i'm getting ripped wide open
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep and
every time tears roll down your cheeks,
but I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet
to meet, and someday you will be loved.
It`s so weird,
& confusing that when I say I don`t know what to do,
I really mean it.
One minute you`re making me laugh out loud,
like no other guy can,
& the next I just want to get up
& leave cause you piss me off so much. I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It isn't worth it.
I tried to work something out, but you ignored it.
I'm not trying to say that I don't want you, because I definitely do.
All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.
actually , to be honest i dont give a fuck; i lose & make friends/enemies day by day. it doesn't change anything. remind you;
ima still be me regardless he was born to be a leaver,
and destined to deceive her.
he was the wrong kind of paradise.
but I guess that’s just another lesson in life He's the kind of boy you can flirt with,
yet still talk to like he's your best friend.
he asked me if I was alright
and, shocked, I looked at him.
after ignoring me all day.
"you ripped out my heart.
threw it on the ground.
and jumped on it several times
yeah I'm alright. dumbass."
She was trying to figure it all out.
Maybe she liked him,
or maybe she liked the idea of him it's good to be scared. it means you have something you're afraid to lose. I can see myself waking up next to you.
Your face being the first thing I see
Every day with your bed head hair
And that sleepy smile. you've changed me ; shaped me into this girl
who is actually capable of loving someone *
when just months ago, she couldn't even love
herself. &The world looks so much brighter with
you by my side<3 girl: i love hoodies. they're like my comfort clothes.
boy: comfort clothes?
girl: yeah. the things that always make you feel better. like comfort food and stuff. mine's chocolate. you know what i mean? stuff like that.
boy: does that make you my comfort person?
<3 i know technically we're not together, but
forget the title and whatever. because if you
look into my eyes and listen to what i have
to say, you'll know i`m the one
girl who will never walk away.. <33 I remember when I used to be the happiest,
loudest, spunkiest person alive. Nothing
could get me down for very long. I smiled
all the time and laughed nonstop. I still see
glimpses of that girl sometimes, but not much.
I miss her. She was a good kid. sweetheart; he's just a lesson you needed to learn. When you look at a person- any person at all.
Just remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through something that has changed them. It's like acoustic guitars and faded tube socks.
Worn down converse and a broken in sweatshirt.
You're so last season, but baby I never follow the trends. Truth: Girls read between the lines,
analyze everything you say,
and late night convo's always have backspaces
with what she is trying to say. The real trouble
with my sarcasm,
is that half the time
when people think
I'm being sarcastic
I'm actually being
quite sincere. the world is lurking with people who are out there to hurt you in any way possible.
Sometimes it just takes patience for everything to happen. You won't get respect in just one day, you can't be in love with someone that you just met & you won't be able to forgive yourself in a second. I've learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won't let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, & learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It's you that have to take that first step into the pathway of happiness. It's your doing that makes you who you are. Don't assume; get your fact straight. That is what messes a lot of people up. There's always the true story & reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common; we all want happiness. It is like we're all trying to fight for it, trying to get what we want & it make us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy; life is what you make of it. Change for the better; don't change for someone else. Change for yourself. Don't be selfish. Don't limit yourself from doing things just because you don't think you can make it through. Remember -- time isn't going to wait for you, so make the best of it. Don't you get it? No matter how many times you ask if I'm okay, its always going to be the same answer, "I'm fine", "I'm okay", "I'm good." I can't tell you that I'm not okay, that answer would get old after a while because you see every time you have asked if I'm okay and every time I nodded and smiled...it was lie. Shes living up to the expectation of never
letting anything get to her...
but something wrong with that smile today...
Congradulations kid you got to her. Sometimes, all you can do is not think
not wonder; not obsess; not imagine.
Sometimes you have to just breathe.
breathe in, breathe out. | | |
| remember that everyone you meet
is afraid of something, loves something,
and has lost something. Sometimes , someone just says
something and it [ fits ] into this
empty place in your heart
<3He looked at me and said,
"Do you ever feel like you're working
for something you're never going to get.
You shoot and miss kind of deal
like, no matter what you can't have it,
but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?"
I looked at him, stared at him for a second
and replied, "Everyday..." life is kinda hard sometimes,
especially when every move you make feels
like a test of strength to survive
anotherday without breaking down don't get attached
you know better than anyone
what happens when you get attatched if ductape, band aids, Advil,
or Tylenol can't fix it,
you have a serious problem. There's always that one person, no matter how long it's been or how badly
they've treated you, if they say "I love you", you will always say it back. I'd much rather be a princess than a slut with regrets;
because diamonds are better than cigarettes. I yearned to get better; I told myself I was getting better. In fact, the depression was still there, like a powerful undertow. Sometimes it grabbed me, yanked me under; other times, I swam free. Throw up
you're a bulimic doll.
Throw up those sleeping pills too.
Suicide isn't pretty.
Beauty-it's what you strive for.
Glamour never came easy I hate it when people tell me,
"I can't believe you don't have a boyfriend!"
Well what's so hard to believe?
I've never been good enough for anyone I like him, okay? So shoot me. It's like a crime to you, isn't it? Oh well. Not like he would ever think about dating his best friend. anyone can make you smile, many
people can make you cry.but it takes
someone really special to make you
smile with tears in your eyes. it's amazing how every girl has that one guy,
that could call her up,
at 3 in the morning, & say
"lets hang out, i'm coming to get you"
& put aside her show, her excitement,
her anger or her hate for him..
she'd give him only 4 words.. "Give Me 10 Minutes i look at you and
motherfuckingassholeihopeyoufuckingdie
comes to my mind
it's funny when people say
"i don't think she likes me." honey,
if i don't like you,
you're going to know about it
-Julia Roberts Chemistry can be a good thing &
a bad thing. Chemistry is good
when you make love with it.
Chemistry is bad when you make
crack with it.
-Adam Sandler I miss you a little,
a little too much actually.
And a little more everyday.
"in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a
person who loves you for exactly what you are.
good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome,
what have you, the right person will still think the
sun shines out your butt. that's the kind of person
that's worth sticking to."
- juno i love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend a day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
-- When Harry Met Sally I’m not allowed to fall in love," she
said.I’m not allowed to care this much."
But when you're staying up late, hoping
to God he's tossing and turning, thinking
of you, it's too late already. & ya words can't reach me;
you are so beneath me .
a queen is a queen because failure has not stopped her"
I dont get my hopes up anymore.
sorry.there are a lot of things about me that aren't what you thought,
but if you love me you have to love all things about me
-dirty dancing you can spend minutes, hours,
days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation;
trying to put the pieces together, justifying what
could've, should've, would've happened.
or you can just leave the pieces on the floor
and move the fuck on. "if someone were to harm my family
or a friend or someone i love,
i would eat them.
i might end up in jail for 500 years,
but i would eat them"
-Johnny Depp
One day you're jumping in puddles [&&] the
next thing you know, 30 years have passed
[&&] you're telling your kids to walk around
them. Everyone is taught to look both ways
before crossing the street [&&] to talk quietly in the
library. But no one ever learns anything that
matters, like how to keep breathing
when your heart breaks in half <|3
Hug the hurt, kiss the broken,
befriend the lost, love the lonely.
he who does not feel me, is not real to me;
therefore he doesn't exist.
so POOF.. vamoose, son of a bitch.
- jay z
the game's out there,
and it's play ; or get played.
that simple.
- the wire could it be? it can't be, hun i'm callin ya bluff
i must be high off this weed cus i ain't fallin in love the problem ain't who i hear it from,
it's that i didn't hear it from you.
- leave it to beaver stop talking about love. every asshole in the world says he loves
somebody. it means nothing. it still doesn't mean anythiing. what you
feel only matters to you. it's what you do to the people you say you
love, that's what matters. it's the only thing that counts.
your fingers hooked around my belt loops ; leaning up
against my riide... remember the first time ii touched you.
iit doesn't matter, ii've held you a miillion tiimes
and iit still feels good. If you're not ready, you're not ready.
Please stop acting like you are. I asked him one day, 'Why all the drugs?'
He told me then and there, 'I find that
life is easier when it is all a blur.' | | |
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