Wednesday, July 16, 2008
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What am I afraid of?
Dinner with Mavis and Ina last night, we talked about different stuff, of couse mostly related to spirtually...
One thing hit my mind from the whole conversation last night was "When you are afraid of something, God will continue to let you to deal with it, until you can face to it." So I ask myself, what am I afraid of? Seriously, I keep asking myself, I don't know what is the exact answer... I'm not saying that I'm so brave, nothing that I'm afraid of... I'm afraid of too many things, but what is the biggest thing that I'm afraid of?
I think of one possible thing, maybe when I have choices, I can't make up my mind to make the decision... when I was young till now... I know that problem... maybe I'm getting better of this problem, but I still have that problem.... and recently I have a question all over my head... keep thinking it what should I do....I don't know what to make the decision, I try to ask for God's confirmation, but still don't know what to do.... maybe I need to be patient to wait for God's answer... maybe it's not the timing that He answer my question yet..
What question is in my head recently? It is "Should I move back to HK? or should I continue to stay here?" I want to set the deadline at the end of this year... but I doubt it whether I can make up my mind and go for one answer
I think of both sides, either way has its own good things and bad things... I'm afraid that I'll be regret if I decide to go for 1 way... well, when I bring this out in my prayer last night... another thing hit my head is that "maybe God let me to choose either way, there is no right answer for my question... I can choose either way, but just put my faith in the direction that I will go next" Last day of 25, going to another stage of life... not very excited
... haha, but need to keep going



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