| My dad really fucked me up.
The smallest thing could upset me.
"I hate having to cradle you like a child." - Father
I'm gonna just..
cry.
And cry some more.
And fucking father's day is coming up.
Now I think every guy in the world is gonna leave me..
And not only that, every one of my boyfriends have chosen Lava over me..
That doesnt help at all.
I hate this.
Now I remember why I used to cut. ><
ugh..
-sighs-
I hate my father.
I hope he rots. |
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| NP: Son Of Dork - Ticket Out Of Loserville
Mood: Tired/Bored
Wanting: Steve Rushton. <3
my new guy list is;;
- Steve Rushton = Son Of Dork
- Harry Judd = McFly
- Danny Jones = McFly
- Benji Madden = Good Charlotte
- New Joel Madden = Good Charlotte
- Dave Williams = Son Of Dork
- Chris Leonard = Son Of Dork
- Danny Hall = Son Of Dork
- Pierre Bouvier = Simple Plan
- Nick Gigler = Mest
- Larry The Cable Guy! :D
- Lucas Grabeel
- Matt Lovato = Mest
- James Bourne = Son Of Dork/Busted
- Matt Willis = Busted
- Corbin Bleu
- Adam Pascal = RENT
- James Penman xD lmfao.
- Mitchel Musso
- CK
- Dip <3
- Charlie Simpson
- Blake Lewis
- Phil Stacey
- The Blonde Kid From The Pacifier
- Viggo Mortenson
- Brendan Fraiser
- Peirce Brosnan
- Tommy Lee Jones
- Matt LeBlanc
- Matthew Perry
- Mark Ruffalo
- Anthony Rapp
- Chris Evans
- Bruce Willis
- The Dro <3
- Zacky from Avendge Sevenfold or whateva. xD
etc.
<3
I love them. mhm. :D
Edit;; Yay updating ness. :] I added more hotness. <3 |
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| someone kill it.
please.
OR ME.
I'll take either. |
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| I'm not heartless, I know whats in my heart.
I do care, but I'm not about to be run over.
I'm not letting other peoples drama get into my life.
I dont need it.
My life is happy, This is the first time in awhile, I've felt peace.
I know where everyone stands; everyone know where I stand.
I dont feel like I'm lying to anyone anymore.
It's great.
People can think I'm a bitch, I'm heartless, whatever.
You dont know me, nor will you ever.
The only person that always will is God.
He's the only person I can never lie to.
And he's shown me I dont need to lie;
And I dont.
If you dont want to be around me, thats fine.
But dont go and say good-bye five times before having me scream it in your ear.
I dont need any of this.
Main People In My Life:
- Lava
- Mommy
- Kitty
- James
- Amber <3
- Shannon
Those are the only people I will always care about.
Lava; Yeah, we get in fights, but we always get through them. It's just how we are. We have gone through too much to just give it up. I love her like a sister, and I always will; even through all the bitching and yelling. :P
Mommy; She's not just my mom, she's one of my best friends. I can tell her anything. Yeah, I get pissed at her alot, but we always talk things through. She loves my friends and understands my choices.
Kitty; He's awesome.
James; My brother. The only guy other than Sam I will ever love. He is AMAZING, and I hate it when he's sad. It makes me so upset when he is, I wish I could make it all better, but I know I cant. I've known him for 2-3 years, but it feels like forever.
Amber; She's ten million times better than all of you. She's a fucking sweetheart and will always be by my side telling me I'm an idiot, or I look gorgeous. xD I love her so much, I cant wait for her to come down and see me. We'll have so much fun. <33
Shannon; My sister. When I first moved to Texas, I never thought I could get so close to someone, yet I did. She lived with us for over a year, and she really is my big sister. I know if anything happens, she'll be there for me. Though her husband is a jackass. :] |
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