"Living In Your Letters"

I'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on nonetheless
and there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.
(In your eyes, your eyes)

Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you and I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
(To me)

Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
and you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you, I'm begging you
Phone calls from further away
and messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart

So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
and pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
and head on my way up there.
'Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.

someday .............. maybe

nothing new in my life ......................  just school and gay crap!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!                 ~A

Keep on .......... keeping on

~a

school started which sucks.......... but its cool to be back and see all my friends . wonder if anything will change this year. I hope i get close to the people i have talked to in awhile and maybe meet new people lol hard to do in valley center I KNOW . well anywaz i have to go study and continue on with my boring somewhat awesome life !

~a             live each day as it was your last            { im sure you all have heard it } but i was thinking about it today and theres tons of things i havent said to people that i need to say          i guess that doesnt really apply here lol but oh well   !!