i fear for the little things that may grow onto bigger things...The things that are left unspoken of; for they cant conjure the words to speak openly through itself…the things that can take ur grey skies away,lift up ur spirits, fullfill uR hopes for a better tomorrow, leave an essense of heavenly glow aroUnd...sO in fear of this; i hide behind this facade, sometimes with the dRoplets i darenot let trail down leave a trace behind; revealing the hidden coverage of this long forgotten soul...A soul wHOm used to idealize living in a fairytale world it seems…Now that soul is longer no more; in place of it all lies a person whose one too may times lost their senses of direction; but always knowing that vulnerability would always remain as a sign of weakness…What makes a person become sum1 who they always said they wont be…Can they fault their own actions or the circumstances  around which built the person they are outside as well as inside now…

I had once thought I knew what I wanted in life; in myself; as well as in the one I wanted to share my life with…Now I live in a blur of memories because I cant seem to see past the present…why Is it when everything u could ever ask for repeatively stares directly right into u, we must stubbornly choose to ignore it to go for all that is not what we want but could only hope for it to be it…We question our lives everday…always wondering why things happened the way they did, and know inside they did for a reason. I don’t regret anything, but I always question my past actions as to what made me do and act the way I did… I cant stand these human emotions but at the same time I yearn and try to cling onto them. There are so many emotions we deal with and sometimes you get mixed up and are not quite shure how or what to feel. I know what I don’t want to feel, but keep on coming back to making myself feel lost. Why cant we be content and happy with what the best has to offer rather then go search for something different with so much questions left unanswered. We go for what is a mystery hoping maybe we have what it takes to solve it…Is it plainly naïve thinking this way? Or just that our heart is so full of life that we happen to want to see the best in everything…With all these fears inside; I am still lunging forward, not taking a step back to endure the pain that I seem immune to feel…Sadly we’ll never know what the future has in stored for all of us…Being hopeless; I can only wish happiness finds its way to each and everyone one of us…