Monday, December 31, 2007

• My Year in Review

  this year was probably the first important year of my life. this year was the deffinite beginning of the rest of my life. as cliche as that sounds. it's pure truth. as a resolution at the beginning a swore that i would be more honest and tell the truth about how i feel. that resolution has definitly been a major part of the way i have been thinking all year. it has made me a stronger person. i believe that before, i was weak and confused about everything. i had no idea of what i wanted. and even though i still have had no clearing of the murkiness i do believe that i am stronger and will make it. i have been fortunate enough to have meet and open up to some new people. they really made a difference in my life. as small a deed they did. very few people have had the chance to know what i really am like on the inside. i don't believe my family even knows. but that's ok because i love them with all my heart and appreciate all they have done for me. without them i think i would still be the lost, hopeless, decieving, wretch i once was. but we all start somewhere. i'm very naive when it comes to the workings of the world and love. i think a certain way that most people don't. that's ok but, it leaves more space for heartbreak. and as much as i have grown as a person this year; i have also suffered much heartbreak. i have closed the better part of my heart. i will test the water again before i jump in headfirst. this is a principle that i have discovered. most things happen for a reason...but in my case things happen due to my persistant mentality. i myself have always been afraid of love. not just romantics...but in general. i fear abandonment. but this year i overcame my boundry and as much as it unnerved me. i broke free of my shell. i rather enjoyed the expirience. lol! i also found something that i'm passionate about. being my job at the theatre, my music, my friends, my family. not necesarily in that order. but it's good to feel like something is right. oh and i developed my good sense of nocturnalism. also i went to my first show. it was awesome. i wish i could go to one every weekend. someday. i love it!!!!! i care that Bhutto was assassinated. i bet she would have made an awesome prez. but may she rest in peace. but basicly im gona enter this new year with an open mind, faith, liberal thinking, honesty, openness, and a little magic may happen! whoo 2008!!!!!!!!!!!!

   

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