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Thursday, March 20, 2008

The Tight Rope

Beware in your prayer, above everything, of limiting God, not only by unbelief, but by fancying that you know what He can do.
... Andrew Murray

There's this balance that we need to find in our prayer life....somewhere between believing and trusting. It's like walking a tight rope...lean too far one way, and you fall into unbelief. Lean too far the other way, and you fall into the name it, claim it mantra of thinking by sheer force of your will, it WILL happen. I think the key may be that when we pray.....the longer we pray, the quieter we get. Then we start listening and God can speak into our spirit's what he wants us to pray and how he will answer.

I'm still work in process when it comes to being quiet. I'm so glad God is SO patient and just waiting for me to shut up...I hope He doesn't have to wait too long....

"Be still and know that I AM GOD".

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

Currently Watching
North & South
By Daniela Denby-Ashe, Richard Armitage, Tim Pigott-Smith, Emma Ferguson (II), Travis Oliver
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Prayer is the movement of trust, of gratitude, of adoration, or of sorrow, that places us before God, seeing both Him and ourselves in the light of His infinite truth, and moves us to ask Him for the mercy, the spiritual strength, the material help, that we all need. The man whose prayer is so pure that he never asks God for anything does not know who God is, and does not know who he is himself: for he does not know his own need of God. All true prayer somehow confesses our absolute dependence on the Lord of life and death. It is, therefore, a deep and vital contact with Him whom we know not only as Lord but as Father. It is when we pray truly that we really are. Our being is brought to a high perfection by this.
... Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Currently Reading
Jamaica Inn
By Daphne Du Maurier
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So I'm off to Germany May 1st. I'm touring in the Frankfurt area and will be working with a band from out there. I'll be there until May 22nd and in the middle of the tour, Adam is coming to visit! Woohoo!! He'll be spending about a week with us and I can't wait to see him! I haven't seen him since November and won't see him again until August so this is a much need "catch up". Guess how much it costs for him to fly from Dublin to Frankfurt? One penny each way plus taxes...isn't that insane? So the flight will cost about $30.00 total. Why don't we have airlines like that in N. America?! Why are taxes on flights 6x more here?! Why is chocolate fattening?!
Last week I was in Calgary and saw Jordan and Vanya. I think something has changed in them everytime I see them....Jordan is growing in wisdom and Vanya is growing more and more in love with God and Nathan....! I also did a concert and got to work with Marty Gray again...whataguy!! So talented! And Marty and Jordan did a short concert as well....wow, is all I can say...though I am a bit prejudice I guess, but Jordan is writing SUCH amazing tunes. I hope he and Adam and Marty do something together when Adam comes home. They could call the band...."the talented". How does that sound?!
Well, I have to go buy some Maple Butter for all my friends in Germany...

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Currently Listening
O
By Damien Rice
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When I was 18 years old, I got on a plane to Manchester England....it was the fall of 1979. I was on my way to Capernwray Bible School and what I thought would be a great adventure. I left behind the man who would be my future husband and an extremely sheltered home life and what I stepped into was life experience and teaching that would forever shape me. I learned what it meant to share a room with 8 girls and be so homesick that I thought I would die and eat my way through 30 lbs of British chocolate that stayed with me all the way back to Canada. I learned to write songs on my guitar that helped me make it through when my dysfunctional social behaviour caused me such heartache. But mostly, I had the privilege of being taught by men like John Stott and Alan Redpath and Charles Price....and I learned that it wasn't all about me. They taught me things that have come back time and time again and how thankful I am for the great teachers that I have passed on my pilgrim's progress....that I had the pleasure of sitting down with them....for a short time.

If I disobey the inner voice of His Spirit, I will lose the fullness. I can never lose the relationship, but I will lose the fullness. When there's disobedience in the Christian life the fullness ceases. He is there but He is grieved. And you soon know when you've lost the fullness, because the joy is gone. The fellowship is gone. The reality of the presence of Christ is gone. It's Satan's delight to tell me that once he's got me, he will keep me. But at that moment I can go back to Him. And I know that if I confess my sins, God is faithful and just to forgive me.
Alan Redpath