| | oooooooooooooooooooooooook seriously long in-depth thinky post
rockin game of circle of death last night, so much fun had by all
I AM THE THUMBMASTER!!!!!!!!!
Lesson Learned Last Night/This Morning #1: killer boots are really rockin, but when they're a size or two too small, you should take them off whenever you arrive, or else you'll have a heel-wide blister the next morning
yeah ouch
some genius decided that water heaters weren't vital to my life this morning when i took a shower..........i tend to disagree
"it's a city of strangers"
OK so i had a weird/cool/kinda sad revelation last night (which is connected to the aforementioned quote):
sparked by the sondheim lyrics and a lyric in linda eder's why do people fall in love? which mentioned something about this world filled with strangers, i started to think about that. According to the International Programs Center, U.S. Bureau of the Census, the total population of the World, projected to 1/16/05 at 4:13:40 PM EST is roughly 6,412,957,360. That's SIX AND A HALF BILLION people. Take a second and try to calculate how many people you know. Friends, family, coworkers, people from past.....etc etc i've estimated that i know somewhere between1-2 thousand people. If you do the math, that's 0.000000156 to 0.000000312%. The world is FILLED with billions of people you don't know. If that doesn't make you feel miniscule, nothing much would. I've had the pleasure and misfortune of moving around a lot growing up, and have found that everywhere I go, I find an amazing group of people. Partly, this is so cool because I know that there are soooo many people that I have yet to become amazing friends with. At the same time, it's kind of shitty cause that makes it seem so unimportant and not at all special. All your friends are dispensable cause there are SO many more out there. And that branches into the ideas of soulmates etc. If you believe that everyone has only one love and soulmate, how can you ever expect to find that person?? There's no possible way to meet everyone in the world. A lot of people find love in that 2 ten-millionths of a percent. Imagine how many true loves are out there for you. Studies show that love can be explained by a certain chemical reaction that happens to most people about 4 times in their entire life. oooooook more math......let's see, if i'm 20 and know 2000 people, we can estimate that once I'm 80, have travelled the world etc, i'll know at most 15000 people, and i'm being generous here. assuming the world's population grows exponentially, and it's projected to grow by 100 million this year, we can say that....k pen and paper time. thanks to google's calculator feature, we can see that when i'm 80 the population should be something around 16,007,714,200. that divided by the 15000 people i'd know, we get about 1,067,181. soooooo by this, we can estimate that there are about 4,268,723.8 potential candidates for love, over four million people i have the capability of falling heads-over-hells, crazy stupid in love with. half empty, half full time: does this person you're in love with (or will be) really matter? are we really that disposable? or is this the most comforting thing i've ever heard (as someone who's never been in love/never been loved)?? why waste my time fretting over people who don't treat me the way i deserve to be treated? hell, there are 4 million people out there just waiting to spend the rest of their lives in my arms
wow..........that was so much thinking......and even more math.
me? i'm holdin out for that .8 of a person |
