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Reflections from Today

Today was basically an average, normal day. I woke up late, then practiced some. I didn't hit good at practice tonight at all. Hopefully things will be different tomorrow. We'll just have to see. I've got my fingers…
- 6/19/2008 11:00 PM
- 5 comments
Panic attack.

Today has been horrible.First, I had schoolwork that had to be done. No one has washed our clothes as well. My parents left earlier, saying that they were going to the grocery store. I didn't eat and didn't eat, even …
- 3/16/2008 3:08 PM
- 13 comments
Annoying.

It's really annoying that softball was canceled this afternoon, because I was looking forward to it very much.But, I managed to get some homework done and it's nice to have some down time, before things get hectic--i.e. …
- 2/25/2008 5:15 PM
- 13 comments
I want a strip pole for my birthday -amusing story ahead-

I went to Nanny's today for Daddy's birthday. (He got a really fancy shotgun that cost over a thousand dollars, so he was happy. Just what we need, another gun -sigh-) Anyway, she had this dirty magazine and she told m…
- 1/9/2008 10:12 PM
- 10 comments
What my life has come to. A poor, sad meager existance

Well, I'm so sick of this. I really, really hate food right now. It's like everything I do revolves around food.This is what my life has come to: Wake up. Skip breakfast. Go to school. Eat maybe half a sandwich (if…
- 12/21/2007 12:46 PM
- 4 comments
Why can't I fix everything? (tears again)

God, I hate myself so much right now. I just heard from Rebecca. I hate that I can't fix things for her. I read her message and I cried. Read Lindsey's diary and I cried. I want to fucking fix every one. I hate tha…
- 12/18/2007 8:32 PM
- 4 comments
Why Do I Have To Remember Stuff Like This?

Why, why why? I don't want to remember this. I hadn't thought about this in forever. I'm really scared to even begin to type about it. It's going to give me another panic attack, but not talking won't do me any good.…
- 12/17/2007 7:00 PM
- 9 comments
Something that I've avoided since 7th grade. but it rarely comes up.

Alright, first off I'm feeling okay. I've cut a couple of times. I'm dealing with everything, not in the best way... but in a way that works for me right now. Or at least it seems to. Alright. Enough about tha…
- 12/5/2007 9:40 PM
- 9 comments
Honestly, now.

I really don't like my father. He's so obnoxious. He said he wasn't drunk, but I'm not sure. He tried to hit me again today. But Margie stepped in between us. She was so drunk. Her husband was drunk. He said there was so…
- 12/2/2007 12:06 AM
- 4 comments
-Screams-

Today has been the longest day ever. I had softball. Jenna stayed in the bathroom for over an hour. She got mad and pushed me into the wall. Sometimes I truly hate her. She had orientation today. I have to go to it tomo…
- 8/29/2007 11:31 PM
- 1 comment