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Name: ice
Country: United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Going on the internet, hanging out with friends/family, watching tv, listening to music, shopping, sports, and some other stuff :P
Expertise: something...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  iceangelgirl2002
Yahoo:  baby_ice54
Member Since:
11/9/2003
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| Hey Hey! Long time since i've updated...well tomorrow's orientation and in about a week & a half...skool starts  ...so sad! I'm still enjoying summer too...well this thurs. i'm gonna cut my hair and than next week dye it...maybe brown again! Than i'm also going shopping next week! I haven't done a lot this summer...barely got to go swimming due to me pulling my rib muscles which hurt like hell! Oh yeah i've been going to bed around 1 am everyday and really need to start going earlier...seriously...i'm gonna be a zombie on the first day of skool lol! Let's see...wat else...ok well i'll update again...whenever i feel like it lol...later  | | |
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I'm so scared right now...that everything will come to an end. That everything that was said during that summer were just because that feeling was still new. That the future that was plan won't happen. That the feelings that were there will fade away...
I don't want that to happen...i really do want that future. I really do want that forever...but i don't know if you still feel that way anymore. Do you still wish to wake up next to me? Still wish to see me everyday? Still wish to give me that hug, those kisses in the morning? Or is that all gone now?
It seems like you think about us being apart more than being together. The more time goes by it seems like that future that was plan seems to go with it...that it might never be real. Do you want it...or is it just all me doing the wishing now?
Please give me an answer...i really do love you. And i really do want to wake up and feel your hugs, your kisses, everything. I want to be able to live in that future and not just see it. | | |
| Life sux! I hated today! It had it ups but mostly just downs! Found out 3 of my friends are moving! One back to the philippines, one back to new york, and one to canada! I guess this town must really sux that nobody wants to stay here anymore! I'm really under a lot of stress right now and mostly its from skool work! Needed help w/ homework but the help couldn't help and that was it! I just broke down! I didn't know wat to do anymore i had a sh*t load of work to do (english, algebra, french, & health!) and i thought about copying it off of someone but we'll have to see first if they'll finish it or not! I'm so tired of skool i just want to go away for a really long while by myself! Summer will probably sux too cuz my dad's gonna make me study thai! I also have to practice volleyball & swimming! Goddamn it i can't be a kid anymore! All i ever have to do is worry & stress all day! Not only about skool but everything else around me! I know that some of them i really shouldn't give a damn about it but these things make it so i can't do that! I'm waking up every morning and wishing that i wasn't anywhere near this reality! They say life's not fair, that u'll fall down every once in a while but they never said anything about falling and falling forever and that no matter how many times u try to pick u'reself up there'll be something else that'll push u back down! | | |
| Hey! Well my week hasn't been all that great so far! Actually it has
been going good there's just one little thing that's making it sux a
lil *sigh*! Well my day was ok! Tomorrow's "Cross-Dressing Day" at
skool & i think imma cross-dress! Its no big deal 4 us girls but i
really wanna see wat some of the guys will look like 
...anyway! I went to get tutored today and even though it was going
pretty well i did understand the work & all but the person tutoring
me wasn't even paying attention to me! Too busy being a social
butterfly so i decided to just go home & finish the work myself! Oh
well! Can't blame them! Came home & thought things might look up
but i guess my mom is pissed at me or something cuz she's not answering
any questions i'm asking her! Life sux!!! I just wanna go to skool
tomorrow! SKool's been looking up for me lately although now that i've
said this! I'll probably flip around like it always does!
Ja-Na**
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| This poem's so sweet! Got it from myspace...
Each year he sent her roses,
and the note would always say,
I love you even more this year,
than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow,
with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time
that the roses would appear.
She thought, he ordered roses
in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know,
that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early,
way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy,
everything would work out fine.
She trimmed the stems and
placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside
the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours,
In her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture,
and the roses sitting there.
A year went by, and it was
to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour,
The doorbell rang, and there
were roses sitting by her door.
She brought the roses in,
and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone,
to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him,
if he would explain, Why would someone would
do this to her, causing her such pain?
"I know your husband passed away,
more than a year ago,"
The owner said,
"I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today,
were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead,
he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order,
that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance,
you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing,
that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.
Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that should be sent to you
the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking,
as she slowly reached to get the card.
Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence,
this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year
since I've been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely,
and the pain is very real.
Or if it was the other way,
I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything
so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say,
you were the perfect wife.
You were my friend and lover,
you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year,
but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy,
even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.
When you get these roses,
think of all the happiness that we had together,
and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and
I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on,
you have some living still.
Please...try to find happiness,
while living out your days.
I know it is not easy,
but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year,
and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered,
when the florist stops to knock.
He will come five times that day,
in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit,
he will know without a doubt!
To take the roses to the place,
where I've instructed him
and place the roses where we are,
together once again.
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