right well...one thing just got less confusing...what'd i call her?...jess?...yeah maybe...well anyway...jess doesn't want me...she wants ariane...why does that always seem to happen to me?...so far in the past month two people that i liked have liked ariane more?...is there something wrong with me?...i mean...do i do stuff to turn people away?...it's just that...i don't know...erika is becoming asexual...so i guess that should solve all of my problems then huh?...heh...it's like the entry i wrote a while back...it was really long and i co mplaied about a lot of things...mostly about why i couldn't find anyone for me...eh...oh well...i guess i don't have anything to worry about...i'll just go in my corner and die now...
i try...and i'm rejected...
i speak...and i'm turned down...
i move...and i'm thrown back...
i hug...and i am ignored...
i listen...but no one talks to me...
i comfort...but no one appreciates...
i smile...but no one bothers...
i wave...but i'm looked passed...
i cry...and no one pays attention...
i choose...but i'm not given choices...
i watch...but no one preforms...
i frown...and no one responds...
i love...but i am unloved...
i die...and no one cares...
so i...alone...die...uncared for...unwanted...unloved...ignored...rejected...and...lonely... | 
