So I finally got the kick in the ass to get on with our crappy life.  My landlord finally sent me over the edge today and basically we got two weeks to move out or we are going to have to pay her an extra 125 dollars on our rent.  I refuse to give that bitch anymore money.  At first I was furious, upset, worried, etc, but now I'm a little better.  Josh is keeping calm and I have ate just about everything we have in our kitchen.  Maybe this was a good thing.  Maybe it is what we needed to get out of this damn rut.  We both have really been hating our lives lately and maybe this will work out.  We are looking at some more houses on Wednesday and if we see something we like we are going to make them an offer.  We still aren't just going to buy the first thing we see.  We are still going to try and find something that is good quality.  I'm just really scared about what is going to happen and Josh is trying to be supportive.  I called about a few apartments yesterday and I'm waiting to hear back.  Mom said worst case scenario we can spend a few weeks at her house, but its already packed there with Ben and Hollie and Jeremy and Brandee and my mom.  We are calling about a storage unit this weekend and see if we can get one reasonably cheap for all our crap.  I just really really really hate change and out of the blue slap you in the face change is even worse. 

At least on the plus side...work is okay right now.  It doesn't make me want to rip my hair out.  I am still looking for another job, but I don't have my hopes very high of finding anything better.  Josh is wanting a different job, but right now he is trying to focus on getting re enrolled in school.  He is going to try Ivy Tech out instead and this time he isn't going to take a ton hard classes at once.  I think he has grown up a lot this summer and I told him that I believe in him.  Maybe that will get him on the right track.

Our relationship is going well thank God.  We are actually caring about each other.  I have been temperamental lately due to lack of sleep and just being chubby...haha.  I am sure I'm going to be a peach to live with the next few weeks.  Everybody just cross your fingers for me that we will find a home this week.  I will hope and pray and hope and pray that we pull this off.  I need some sleep.  Night all.

Josh and I just talked this morning when he got off work.  It wasn't screaming and yelling and crying and throwing stuff...just talking.  It was nice to let him know how I feel and for once I felt like he was actually listening.  I have just been a little neglected lately and it really got my nerves this past week.  It was reminiscent of the beginning of our relationship.  My favorite thing was we used to wake up in the morning and just lay in bed talking about anything and everything.  I miss that.  With our crazy work schedules we almost never see each other when we wake up.  We almost always wake up alone and go to asleep alone, but somewhere in the middle we sleep next to each other for a few minutes.  I will be so happy when he gets a different job.  No matter what job I get I will still probably working days.  I would be really happy if he would just look for something different.  He doesn't seem very determined though.  We will be seeing each other even less when he goes back to school in the fall.  I am doing my best to make it work.  Eventually things have to work out right?...hehe.  Well, I promised the baby that I would take him for a walk tonight so I gotta go.  Bye all.