Monday, March 31, 2008
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Undecided.
When I first applied to college. I didn't really have a game plan. I applied to seven schools. Six of them in California and one in Illinois (don't ask why).
I thought to myself... I'll just go the best one that accepts me.
And I wait... 4 months, and letters start coming through the mail.
Accepted.
Accepted.
Accepted.
Accepted.
Accepted.
Accepted.
Accepted.
This was a novel concept to me. I did not think that I was going to have such good fortune. My game plan was simply to apply, hope for the best, and go the the best one I applied to. Now... I'm stuck.
The last two of those 'Accepted.'s were UCLA and UCBerkeley. I was overjoyed to hear that I got into both, but when the elation wore off, it left me with a dull... anxiety. Where am I going to go to school. I didn't anticipate getting into both. If I got into UCLA, I didn't think Berkeley would accept me, of if I got into Berkeley, I doubted UCLA would want me.
I'm stuck in between two really good schools which happen to be sister schools.
So... let's lay it down.
I've always thought that I'd end up at UCLA. Part of me admits that the last four years (my high school experience) was focussed on this ideal - becoming a Bruin. But... before this, as a child, I always thought that it would be a great thing to be able to attend Berkeley.
UCLA, in my mind, easily becomes the first choice. Better band, better sports teams, intramural sports, big student population, great area, great education.
I was pretty much set on UCLA until my Berkeley letter arrived, and I started thinking... premier public university. It's ranked #1. What could that mean to me? If it is ranked #1, there has to be a reason. What am I so blinded by? How come I cannot see the great things about Berkeley?
My first year at UCLA will generally cost me less because of scholarships... but the cost of living in dorms and in apartments nearby UCLA will far exceed what the cost of living would be if I lived by Berkeley. Going to public universities... the idea I am considering is the overall cost of living to go to Berkeley and the cost of living at UCLA.
I mean.... I want to get away from home, but is going all the way across the state the right way to rebel against my parents' wishes for UCLA?
My father's pushing me to go to UCLA. My mother doesn't particular care... but would rather I go to Berkeley.
I'm hoping I get accepted for the Host Program, but do know not. If I could visit for free.. that would be great.
What I fear about deciding to go to UCLA is that I've been brainwashed by my sister, a bruin, and my father, an Asian man who brags to all of his friends that his two daughters got into UCLA. Have I been brainwashed?
Is my bias... justified? I don't know...
I really don't know.
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