I need this...

I'm finally gonna be able to come home.

I haven't been home since December. I NEED to see my family and friends. I NEED to go on that hott date with Ashley, haha. I NEED to hold my baby sister and hug all the other lil runts that run around my house

Sarah, I gotta give you back that "BushReallySucksAndNeedsToDie" book. I saw a picture of a guy in a sombrero with maracas and a Mexican blanket and I thought of that one Sunday at church where we got BITCHED at by the pastor's wife...for singing Jesus songs with cheesy Mexican accents. Ya know...I think God was laughing at us...

I wanna go back to my old HS again and cause trouble. I wanna KNOW where I am and where I'm going. I wanna feel like I BELONG somewhere again.

And when I leave, I am taking a lil bit of home back with me. Krista's gonna stay for a month or so. Just something to give her a breath of fresh air...and I guess it's also a lil bit for me...so I can feel like the big sister I'm SUPPOSED to be.

And then there's the REASON I'm coming home...the BIG old DEPRESSING reason...to see my husband, just one last time...before he leaves to do one of the most heroic things I know of.

Iraq.

I love you all and I can't wait to hug you.

It's quite sad that it's been nearly a month and still nothing new has happened.

I AM coming home tho...26 May - 10 June ! ! ! !  I will be home for FESTIVAL!!!

The "Blahs"?

Disgusting

This site makes me INCREDIBLY angry. It's disgusting. What's even worse is that a lot of them went unpunished or barely punished at all.

http://leelah.tripod.com/index.html

Life

I wish to write something beautiful one last time; like before, when everything was okay.

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
-John Burroughs

I am here...surrounded by so many unknowns. There are so many things I took for granted; friendships and life being the greatest. There are many people I want to run up to and hug; to give them a kiss on the cheek and tell them to their face, "I love you". For so many years, I could do that at any given time.

Being here has taken so many things from me: my friends and family...my love.

My body has traveled, yet my heart is still back home.

War is an eye-opener. July will be a day of great sorrow.

I despise the thought of war yet, I would gladly take anyone's place. I'd rather it be me to die than you. Any of you.

"Love hath no greater gift than this; that man giveth his life for a friend." ...Something along those lines. My purpose - To protect you. That is whether you are black or white, American or not. I am your sacrifice.

No, I do not want to go; I do not even want to be HERE, but I will if it will keep you alive.

Like the quote - There are so many things I would like to do daily. There are so many people that I would like to thank for support; so many friends that I would give everything to...but it seems I've lost all time.

If I've ever known you or met you, I've loved you.

Know that.

No matter our terms. No matter our current relationship, I would give my life for you.

And if you will ever be in the same position as I will, I would gladly take your place. I would beg to take your place, so that you do not have to experience an ounce of pain.

I love you.