i'm in a weird mood, and i'm lonely, and while i have ample opportunity to go out and find something to do with people, i'm just choosing to stay home. this weekend will be full of fun and visiting, and my lonely is the kind that requires being alone.

do you know what i mean?

so i'm puttering around the house, putting things in the recycle bin, taking care of dishes, etc, in anticipation of helen's arrival. sweeto did a good job of taking care of a lot of it, but there is still a little stuff to be done.

it's good. it gives me time to be alone with my thoughts.

my thoughts have been a little crazy this past week, and i don't quite know what to make of them.

nothing worth sharing here, or with anyone in particular. just general thoughts on life, and what we are all about, and who we are. see? boring, crazy things that the only person who would find them fascinating would be me

fascinating, indeed.

sometimes, you realize that you don't know anything.

and sometimes, you discover that you knew it all, all along.

and then, sometimes, you wonder if the undeniable truth is that you would do it all over again if you could.

maybe, we'll get it right in the next life.

yes. maybe.