| | i just wrote a monster research paper for that stupid bitch of a class, polisci 17. i fiinished about 7 in the morning.
i checked my email to hear back from kate in the uk. we've been talking about this great opportunity to work with one of the biggest companies in edinburgh and i'd get to do all sorts of cool things but i need to be interviewed when i get over there first. yadda yadda. i wont bore you with the details.
i checked my email this morning and in passing she said something like "you should probably be looking into getting a flight to edinburgh around june 10th - june 13th or so but don't settle on a date yet."
and it hit me.
i'm leaving for edinburgh in less than a month.
i've sort of ignored that fact through all the stress and midterms and crap....but its true. i'm going to the UK for 2 MONTHS. and i leave in less than 1. there's so much to do. so much to plan!
its the cold foggy time of the morning like when you usually go to the airport. maybe thats why this is all so strong.
i'm starting to panic. its finally hit me what i'm doing this summer and now i'm scared cuz i feel like there's no time. and i'm ENTHRALLED and freaked out and ENRAPTURED and unsure and SO HAPPY to be getting out of here. to have my mind on new experiences and new people and new places.
but that sounds fantastic in your head but the reality of it all is slowly starting to sink in.
what do i take?
will i have enough time to move out of my apartment before i hop a plane?
is there time for a good bye party?
can i take my computer?
how do i get around?
can i find a church?
how much money can i scrounge up?
will there be time for goodbyes?
i've never felt so scared and so anxious and so excited in all my life.
i've been up for 20 hours or so today. i'm exhausted. but i can't sit still or close my eyes.
~rachel~ |
| | Posted 5/24/2005 10:47 AM - 1 view - 3 comments
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