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its like rain on your wedding day.

sometimes its worth it to forget your umbrella and have to walk in it. i scream with a happy frustration when my umbrella blows inside out. and i smile when i drive through puddles and they splash up real high…
failureface.

this week is looming towards me. so i ran away this morning and didnt go to class. "my alarm didn't go off". i hate weeks like this. i'm so apt to looking far enough ahead to see all the things that have to get do…
that you make me aware the only fear my only hope is letting go.

i am taking a sabbath this sunday. a much needed one indeed. today was a blur. spent mostly in the theatre with a headache and 50 bajillion people asking or telling me things. this whole stage managing thing i…
i miss the chairs of the coffee shop. doing nothing for 5 minutes. and talking for hours.

s.i.g.h. i find it remarkable that i try to shove god in such a small little tupperware container. god is not leftovers. but i treat him like that often. and its so convicting coming home after a long day to j…
rant: i regsitered for my spring classes today. and i am quite perturbed. i've been trying to get into this one science class for over a year now and i still can't get in because the STUPID FREAKING ATHLETES AND …
i need to stop flinging my heart at people and things as if i were playing dodgeball. did i mention? i'm not very good at dodgeball.... i flipped on the good ol' lyndsay diaries whilst walking to class today. (w…
youre just too good to be true, can't take my eyes off of you...

yes, there is a hole in my heart only god can fill. but. there is a hole in god's heart than only I can fill. i just need to keep coming back to that truth. that god's love is fierce, tender, and intimate…
mmm. just to clear things up...i want a man. not a guy dude bro boy or bloke. and in honor of my least favourite holiday...well, maybe not least, but certainly not celebrated in the conventional …
i remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. i well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. yet this i call to mind and therefore i have hope: because of th…
today i watched the lion king 1 1/2 and it was glorious. nobody answers their phones today....and it is making me a little crazy. i want everything to work out. i want happily ever after, already. i p…
i drive at midnight and feel your warmth as you rush through me. but what did that mean? my questions hang on the rearview mirror. i love words i love people who weild them like an artist ap…
my mind imploded. the shadows are back. and who knew i could spiral so? i'm going to shrink down so very minute a blink of an eye will let me go. this hopeless endeavor demands more of …