It is one of the biggest decision in my life. I am still rather cool about it, but I know it will sink in slowly. At times I do ask myself if this is really what I want. I know there is no turning back. I have made up my mind, if I feel this is the right time, I should believe in myself. Even if it goes wrong, I have tried my best to prove myself. It's not the end of it, it really just started. It's a whole new chapter of my life and it's up to me to make it a wonderful story. I hope it's a good news, but I do know everything happen for a reason. If it's not belong to me, it will never be... but if it's mine, it will be waiting for me. I do know if I love myself more, I will be a much happier person. Most of the time, I think of others first before I think of myself. At the end of the day, who is there to think about me? To care about my feeling? Work has been rather boring and stressful. Stressful not becoz of the workload but becoz of some people in the office. I don't like selfish people as I can never understand how they can be so selfish. Looking for people to blame, pointing finger at others when a problem comes up. I think I have enough of this workplace, it gets me thinking all the time. what I want to do and what should I be doing. I am taking one step at the time and I will get there eventually. I have got myself a job offer as a HR/Payroll Assistant two weeks ago. I then spent about 3 sleepless nights to think if I should take it up. I have been longing to get out of Government and go into private sector. I know to my parents they can't understand why I am giving up a good job for something more difficult, but I love challenge. At the end, I decided not to take up the job, becoz it will put me in a three months probation and it will also mean I can't buy a house in this three months. | 
