So far today I haven't eaten anything today. I plan on keeping it that way, though there is one problem. Tonight Mom is going to make this pesto pizza because she knows I like it, so I'm not sure how to get around that one. I had planned on eating some oatmeal or a yogurt today. But instead I'll have one piece of pizza, no more then that. That is of course if I can't come up with a way to get out of eating the pizza. I'm supposed to go out with Lesley at six. But Mom doesn't want to wait for dinner so she wants me to prepare the pizza before she gets home and then we'll eat it before I leave with Lesley. I really just want it to be next year so that I can just no eat. This morning Alex called, which was a great way to start the day and a good reminder not to eat. I want him to be in shock, in a good way, when he sees me at band camp. I think he might like me and I think if I lose weight before the next time he sees me, it'll make sure he does. I only have a month, so I won't be able to lose all the weight I need to, but it's a start.
Right now I feel so light because my stomach keeps grumbling and I'm light headed. Most people don't understand how amazing that feeling is. It means my body is eating it's own fat. I know there is more then enough of that to live off of for months.
I just ate a baby carrot, and I'll probably have some more carrots. They are a negative calorie food so I can them without feeling quilty. And that way when it's dinner time I won't be going crazy with hunger and binge. Carrots are one thing I don't have to count how many I have. It's nice to eat something I don't have to worry about.
I'm kind of nervous about my birthday party Saturday, for two reasons. Reason one is the obvious one, it's a party with a bunch of junk food and alcohol. I need to not eat anything the day of the party, or maybe the rest of this week. Then after the party I will go on a fast for at least a week. I can't wait until school starts. Then I can fast as much as I want and eat as little as I want.
Ok all I've had today is a bunch of carrots which is guilt free, so I'm feeling pretty good. I just have to pay attention when it comes to that pizza. Which I now have to go make. I'll post my final intake for the day later.
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