Anyway back to the lost subs: One was over my religion and the other was over my morals. Now about the religion, I think I've explained all I'm going to about that.  I'm not a deeply religious person anyway. I don't actually go by just one singular set of beliefs or values other than my own. I do what I think is right or at least I try. When I can't do what I know is the right thing to do, then you can bet your butt that there's a good reason for it. An unavoidable one.

I'm more practical and logical and realistic than I am religious. You can "BELIEVE" in anything you want to, but there's not one person on the face of this earth that actually "KNOWS" that God or Allah or Jehovah, or whatever you wish to call him in whatever language you use to do so, exists 100% or in what capacity .....without a doubt. You may "SAY" that you do because you have "FAITH" and that's what you "FEEL" inside  and it was also what you were "TAUGHT", but as for absolute "PROOF", you're not going to get that until it's too late to do anything about the state of your soul anyway....in the end, so you've got to believe in something. You've got to have an idea or at least a theory on how we got here...one way or the other.

I really can't see what my religion or my thoughts on any of this has to do with anyone but me, but if those that left because of it are so closeminded and discriminatory and bigoted that they feel a need to unsub because I am such a wild woman, then I don't want them reading my damn page anyway, so good riddance. Damn, but they hurt my wittle feelings.

*sighs* Now on to the other.....my morals. I'm pagan. I don't have any.

In a way, that is the truth. I don't hold to the same morals that most do. I don't go by something just because "society" says so or because the "bible" says so or even because "Dear Abby" says so...okay well maybe contradicting Dear Abby is taking it a little too far, but anyway, you get my meaning. My morals go by what I think is right. If I don't see the sense in something, then I toss it out.

The reason that this person unsubbed is because I am living without benefit of marriage and have no intention of changing things now or ever. And I don't think that she understands this but pagans don't believe that you must get married and if you do, it won't be in any church.  And the ONLY reason I got married before was because THEY thought it was important, (one of those being my dad who was raised christian and figured that the first time he heard anyone call me a name that was derogatory that he'd probably be in jail, and since he had never been in there before, he didn't think he'd like it much, so I took pity on him. ) and as it didn't make much difference to me one way or another, I agreed. And then I got divorced. Which is a big pain in the butt to go through. I'd rather just walk away.

So why not now? Why not get married now? Because I've done it before and didn't like it. Because my relationship is fine the way it is. (If it ain't broke, don't fix it.) I'm happy. I feel more secure in this relationship then I ever did when I was married. Isn't that why most people get married?

 You don't need a license filed at any courthouse just because you're in love. They could give a shit less about love. If you notice, there's not a word on that certificate about love. The clergy/JP etc may say something about it, performing the ceremony, but it's not written down anywhere.

You don't need it because of what people will say...not these days, cause if they don't like you, they're gonna say it anyway. Same words, different flavor.

The ONLY reason you need that piece of paper is security.....it gives you rights in that relationship. If you divorce, it gives you leverage. In fact, these days, you don't even need it to put the babys fathers' name on the certificate. Say so and they'll do it anyway. Now for child support,...but wait, that's only if you're divorcing, right? That paper is "SECURITY", nothing more. Legal rights filed in court.

It doesn't keep the other faithful. It doesn't make everything all better if it's not meant to be. And after 14 years, believe me if I didn't feel secure, if I didn't know this was the right relationship for me, I'd run as fast as I could in the other direction.

 Have you not ever just "known" without a doubt that something was right? No piece of paper bound us together and none will ever tear us apart.

SO..... I don't really care if someone thinks I'm a terrible person for living in sin. I don't call loving someone a sin. And IF THIS IS SIN, then leave me alone and let me wallow in it. As I said before, Damn they hurt my wittle feelings.

Too bad they aren't as happy as I am. I feel sorry for them. Really I do.